Hello712 Posted November 14, 2017 Share Posted November 14, 2017 Hello, I'm 21 years old and my ex is 20. Beforehand I'm going to tell that english is not my first language, so sorry about mistakes. So me and my ex we were together for 3 years. Relationship was really great, we did evertything together, we were trully in love with each other. Unfortunatly after 2 years, I had to move to other country for a month, when I came back I found out that she was meeting other guy. I felt really bad, but I managed to get over it and I forgave her. But things didn't end there. After that she started meeting with her ex, they even slept together. I got really angry, we argued alot and to be honest she didn't seem to be really sorry about that, but I just couldnt dump her, my feelings got really hurt, but I still loved her alot. And yes she cheated third time after couple of months. I couldnt take it anymore, I even cried probably first time since chilhood. Before that I was really confident, I had social life, friends, but after those three years that I tried to do best I could for us, it was all crushed. My self esteem was really low after that, I didnt have any friends anymore or social life, I felt depressed. However I couldn't see her begging for forgivness, crying, so yes we got back together. But after that she dumped me. She told me that she doesn't see us having children anytime.. All these years I spent all my time for her, not myself, however I was happy being with her.. after she dumped me I was depressed, It was worst weeks in my life. Time passed ,after a month I managed to start studying as a cook, I was getting back in life, but she texted and asked me If I want to meet with her, probably because I did no contact rule. Well, I agreed since I wa still thinking about her every single day probably 100 times a day. We spent a great day together, she told me that she misses me and wants to be together, I told the same and today she ignored me all day and she told me she has a new boyfriend. All my work improwing my self during that month went down the drain, this time I feel even worse, I cant imagine her with anyone else, I can't do anything during a day. I know I'm obsessed with her and it's killing me. I feel like I cant live without her. I have had orher girlfriends but it's not the same.. I even thoughs of a suicide.. I need advice how to get over it.. I cant live like this anymore, I hope I could delete all memories I have and start my life again and I dont have anyone I could talk about this, I dont even want my parents to know all about this. I act nice and happy infront of my family, relatives because I dont want them to feel bad about all this story, I just cant let them know all this. I just dont have anyone to talk with, I feel so lonely and depressed, I dont sleep during nights and I cant stop thinking of her. Link to comment
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