hanabee Posted July 23, 2017 Share Posted July 23, 2017 Hello, if you are reading this. Thank you. If you have any advice or thoughts I'd really appreciate to hear your opinion and advice. I have been working with a company for 4 years now. I've come to realize how much I hate working here and have been thinking about moving away. I spoke with my manager and asked for a transfer. She came across very nice and genuinely wanted to help me. Recently something happened at work and it made me feel as if they are actually wanting to push me out because I requested for a transfer. I don't have proof but they are making my work life miserable. Afraid that I'll lose my job in retaliation I reached out to my cousin. She is offering for me to move in with her in California. I could live with her rent free until I find a better job. This is something that I'm really considering. I currently live on the East coast with my boyfriend of 3 years. If I move in with her I will have to separate from him for a time. I have started to realize I have a very big attachment to him. Before I'd lie to myself and tell myself that I don't need him around and that I can be alone and be fine if we ever break up. I've been hurt badly in the past and have built up a pretty big wall. But now the thought of moving away from him hurts. I realize how much I love him and it's hurting just thinking we'll be apart. We did long distance before. When we first started dating we were long distant. And we are super happy together. Now being apart gives me all these feelings of anxiety and worry. He says that we will be fine and that I need to do what I feel is best for me. But I'm very scared of this change. All these fears and vulnerability is starting to surface. I'm already 30 yrs old and this kind of change is very scary. I don't know if I should be doing something so drastic. I keep hoping that everything will pass at work and I may not lose my job. But I have this nagging feeling that the worst is coming. Link to comment
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