positiveone Posted June 19, 2017 Share Posted June 19, 2017 I thought it would be different by now, I thought she would have come back. Its been a couple days over 5 months since we broke up. Im shocked at the fact that it has been 5 whole months... I'm still in pain but its not the same pain anymore... I still wish we could have worked things out and i still wonder if she will ever reach out to me. I still feel lost, and at times when i am alone i feel down and out. On a positive note, Ive made some big changes in my life. Ive really started thinking about my future and where i want to be.. i don't think I would have started to seriously think about those things if we continued to stay together. On one hand I am thankful that the breakup made me grow in certain ways.. on the other hand i am still deeply deeply saddened at the loss of her not being present in my life anymore. I am going out with my friends a lot more, living a young life and enjoying the night life on the weekends... it has been an absolute blast meeting some new friends and enjoying the night life, however the comfort of being in a relationship and having that warm feeling when you get home and see that person is still something i yearn for.. This new life i'm living doesn't really compare to being in love. I wish I didn't care about being with her anymore, she left me and i want to move on. We shared so many "first time" memories together, went to italy etc. Maybe all of these things i shared with her for the first time is why its taking me so long to get over this whole thing. I hope i get over her... i don't want to be in pain anymore. I hope I find someone that is better than her. these are just my thoughts, thank you for reading and commenting. we were together for 2.5 years (22M) (20F) Link to comment
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