cleo123 Posted June 15, 2017 Share Posted June 15, 2017 It's been over 4 months since my ex boyfriend broke up with. In those 4 months, I've gone from feeling depressed to stable to happy to depressed to happy to depressed all over again. It's a viscous cycle and no matter what I do, I can't seem to break free from it. I think what really triggers the withdrawals is memories. But I can't help it- he's every where, you know? A restaurant in the corner, a paper I did in class, a movie, a song, even a word will trigger memories of him. Even without trying, my brain constantly comes up with memories I didnt even think I remembered. Memories as simple and meaningless as putting a face mask on together one night. Or buying an umbrella when we went to the zoo. Or being in a certain store at that zoo with him while I checked my grades online. I remember it like it was just yesterday. god I remember every detail and it's so painful! When someone says "why do white people always ask to take pico off their food?" I remember how one time my ex asked to take pico off his burrito and I remember exactly where we were sitting. Lol. It's ridiculous at this point. I hate that these were some of the best, most beautiful memories of my life and that's all that they'll ever be- just memories. I don't know the person in them anymore and he will never love me like that again. How do you stop the memories from hurting so much? How do you stop yourself from internalizing them so much and dwelling in the past. I know it's bad to dwell in the past but no matter what I do I can't seem to stop wanting the feeling I had with him so bad. Link to comment
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