she is pulling away...today's update, she emailed

[amanda22]

I wonder sometimes if the whole "busy" thing is just an excuse. I think that people make time for their priorities. I've never been 'too busy' for someone I really wanted to be with. I've always found a way to make time for her always!

 

i couldnt agree more...

[amanda22]

arggg..still practicing the quote thing...

[ocean9]

I haven't contacted her all day. It's been hard to not reply to her email. All she had to do was pick up the phone though, and she would have been able to talk with me.

 

I am concerned that I am coming off as a jerk for not replying to her. I really don't want an email-based relationship though, no thanks.

 

~sigh~

[ticklebug]

ocean...

 

so what if you come off as a jerk for cripes sake...think she somewhat deserves it at this point.

 

Then again I'm all for you telling her to take a long walk off a short pier into the amazon river where piranna are feeding...

[ocean9]

LOL!

 

I don't think she is at home stewing over all of this the way I am. I know I should be really pissed off about her behavior, but I'm not.

 

I'm just too damned nice for my own good sometimes!

[ticklebug]

yes ocean...I really do think you are =)

 

but every ocean has sharks in it....hopefully yours will come out and bite one of these days.

[ocean9]

LOL!

 

I think I'm full of dolphins and whales...and a mermaid or two.

 

...but that made me laugh, so thanks!

[ocean9]

I put more of her stuff away today, out of sight, out of mind.

 

When I got her email, it was not an easy moment. I was able to delete it and everything, so that I wouldn't keep reading it over and over, looking for 'hints' or the truth between the lines.

 

She told me she loved me yet again...that was hard to read.

[amanda22]

ocean i think its great you are putting her stuff away. i used to have this shrine of my ex with stuff he gave me and pics. i put all of it away except for a pic or two, but even sometimes i think its too much. i agree with ticklebug that the last thing u should worry about is coming accross as a jerk. trust me a jerk you are not! and i also think she has it coming to her...maybe she says i love you because she knows you go weak for it and thats how she gets away with stuff...

[ocean9]

maybe she says i love you because she knows you go weak for it and thats how she gets away with stuff

 

Ya, maybe. I don't think she knows what adult love is all about anyway. Who knows. Anyone can type "I love you" on a computer screen. It's not hard.

[ocean9]

...plus her actions are NOT loving actions...they are selfish actions.

[ocean9]

I'm all alone on Christmas Eve, oh ya, I can feel the love all right! Sheesh! She must think I'm one hell of a sucker!

 

...hey, maybe that's a little shark coming around the bend. LOL!

[amanda22]

im sorry if i missed it, did you ever mention how old she was or you???

 

oh god, dont remind me how i am all alone for xmas eve, xmas, new years eve, valentines.....oh god

 

sorry, lets suck it up...out with the old...in with the new!!!! \