ang3l2004 Posted December 1, 2004 Share Posted December 1, 2004 Once again I sit here confused and very emotional,Well mabe this is truly the end my ex does not want to talk to me anymore and has finally told me he does not want to talk to me because he wants to get over his feelings for me,This hurts the breakup hurt the process of dealing with it hurt,But now after he has told me this it killed me it stabbed me 10 times more harder in my heart and has made me feel like so stressed and depressed.I am really unsure of what to do at this point even though there is nothing I can do I wish there was something I could do. I wish everyone could understand how much I love and care for him and I am not over him I wish there was a way for him to see this but I dont think he really cares about that anymore because he wants nothing to do with me because of things that have happened in the past,Now my question is what now what can I do it has been 7 months I am not over him I love him to death and now he does not even want to talk to me at all? I am just so lost and so confused it really sucks and I cant take much more of feeling like this,Sometimes I wish that there was a way we could work things out and be better but this is just so messed up.He told me love is nothing but a word that love does not mean anything yet he told me he loved and wanted to marry me for 2 years,This all is starting to really take me back down in a depression again when all I want to really do is be happy! I find myself thinking about not ever talking to him again and I cant even imagine it because I am still in love with him and we have been through this a million times the no talking not seeing eachother but this time he told me he wants to get over me!I really seen him in my future and this is so hard on me,Yes I realize I am 21 years old I have alot of growing up to do and more things to learn but I do know for a fact that he is something I just can give up on and pretend everything is ok when in fact it's not has not been and I really cant see it being ok in time because alot of time has passed. If you can understand where I am coming from or have opinions or advice please can someone help me out here I am at the end of the road on figuring out what I can do?He told me once we stop talking I will meet someone and he has been through this before and it will work and I told him we will see because I am not looking and def dont want anyone else but him.Sometimes I wonder if he ever really cared or the things he told me were the truth or if it was just something to say. I really really dont know what to do all I want is someway to making everything better and us trying to work it out or atleast mabe even talk here and there I dont know what is wrong with me,As you can see I am crying and my heart is to and I am just sick of it everyone tells me time will heal your wounds but it has been 7 months and still no difference in the way I feel about him it's like my mind is set why is that when he wants nothing to do with me right now?! Someone please explain to me why I go through this?Why I think about him all the time and even though he treats me like dirt sometimes why I still care so much about him and love him more then anything?Why is it that when he says to me very blunt I dont want to talk to you anymore I want to get over my feelings for you that I cant just except that and move on?NO it just dont happen for me I am stuck and hurt and really confused!Instead I still try to call him I still want to see him and I take the yells that he gives me when we do talk,Or I still try to find ways to make him happy and make things better?WHY?please help Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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