Wanted Posted November 3, 2011 Share Posted November 3, 2011 Hey everyone! I have posted on this site before when I was going through a tough break up about 2 years ago I want to say? Since then, NC worked for me and I got her back and been great since! Four months ago we finally moved in together after five years of dating and it has been horrible! Lots of fights, me spending more time with my friends, family, ect. Rather than her and I regret that SO BAD! So about a week and a half ago she broke up with me and said we are done and at my state of mind I did not care and we just agreed to finish our lease and head our separate ways. Last Friday, we had already had plans to go to Halloween Horror Nights (Universal Studios Halloween Theme, we live in Orlando and go every year.) with some mutual friends and at first it was not looking like we were going to go, but in the end I decided to go. As I was getting ready she basically attacked me and insisted to know where I was going and I asked her why she cared all of a sudden after being so cold with me. She started fussing and slightly crying after I told her she couldn't come and I was going (more my friends than hers). On the way over I broke down and told her I apologize for the way I acted and to come and she said "no I'm out" and as I was calling my friend to meet up she texted me apologizing for everything and that she was coming and was with my friend and his girl at the moment to meet up. So for some reason I felt angry after telling my friend not to invite her and he did anyways and I acted like a complete * * * * * * * that night, ignored her most of the night, ect. From that day forward I've apologized non stop, cried my ass off for her, surprised her with things she likes/wants, promised change to everything she hates about me, ect. She says she is done and it is final, that she is scared to try again, ect. I go through her phone because naturally, I think there is someone else involved so I see texts from guys, but cut off because it seems like she deleted ALL her texts before getting home. NC will not work because I am trying to show her she is my number one (which is a huge part of why she does not want to continue). I know I can change and I want to badly! I just want her back! Two days ago, after me breaking down in front of her she said just take it one day at a time, but I feel like she is just saying it to make me feel better. What should I do? I am dying on the inside. I don't eat, performance at work is terrible, ect. Link to comment
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