Inside myself is a dark place where I live all alone ...

[Soteria]

Another day is ending here.. Ending the same way as the one before and before.... and before.. Young woman crying herself to sleep.

 

I have no more tears but force myself to cry to let my emotions out. It helps a little. Helps to breath again for a while..

 

The huge hole in my chest is getting bigger day by day, the emptiness stronger, the thoughts are getting darker but I am still here.. fighting. Fighting for the ones I love.

[Snowy]

Hang in there.

 

May time heal you.

[lonelygirl82]

What has made you feel like this? I've been there and know how you feel, but it can get better. Are you having any kind of counselling? My therapist has been a lifesaver (literally) to me over the last 18 months. There are people out there who can help you.

[Soteria]

Different reasons over a very long period of time. I believe that the answers are within you and if it is time for you to go, it is time. And as reality has proven many times there is nothing anyone can do about it.. I don't want to stay on "auto-life" using medications which means I wouldn't be able to support myself and start being a burden for my family is not an option.

[Soteria]

I believe my post was self explanatory! I didn't ask for help. I must not provide any background or cause if I don't feel comfortable or don't want to.. I am here because I believed that people don't mind listening, reading my nonsense and will not judge me, will not treat me like a lunatic or try to heal me or send me to a shrink.. and that is the impression I got from the posts I read so I am not sure about the pressure here now.

[j needs help]

Dont go an auto life, its not fun at all, take control. find things that make you happy and embrace them. embrace life, dont stand back and watch it, be a part of it.

 

I hope you feel better though, send me a message if you'd like to vent some more with out questions

[CynicalGuitarist]

I know this sounds strange, but be glad you can at least cry yourself to sleep. I can't; I haven't cried in years and it doesn't work even when I force myself to.

 

However, I can really empathize... feel free to talk; I'll listen.