Given up on my sister and my family, I am so alone

[violetzombie]

I would like to think that I am a good person. I try my best with my family, help them out as often as I can but more and more recently all I end up is being upset and alone.

 

I live with two sisters, we live in my mum's house (she died a couple of years ago) and ever since things are just getting worse and worse. One sister, C, is driving me crazy and I don't know what to do anymore. She is 8 years younger than me but in general keeps telling me what to do and what she thinks I should do which is frustrating in itself. She pretty much talks to everyone this way but because I don't let her get away with it I always end up being the one she takes her anger and frustration out on.

 

C and my youngest sister A are of similar ages and are happy to swear at each other, call each other names and generally speak to each other in a way that I do not really approve of. But they are happy to have that kind of relationship so I don't get involved. But I do not want to be spoken to or treated in the same way. C does not like this and keeps saying that A is okay with this so I should be too.

 

I have tried talking to C about this but it does not help because she cannot see why I have a problem with it. I am aware that I can be over sensitive and have tried to change. I used to hold onto things too long and I have really worked at letting things go. C doesn't even try. Today we got into an argument and I said I was really fed up having the same argument over and over and I didn't know how to get past it - C replied 'when you say things like that it makes me want to gauge my eyes out' she also suggested that I kill myself.

 

We dont argue everyday but every single day she says something which is a little dig which I really try and let go but it is getting increasingly difficult. I dont understand why I am the only person who has a problem with how she talks to everyone. I really do not know what to do. All I feel is alone and paranoid. I feel like no-one cares about me. No-one comes to see if I'm okay when I'm upset. I just feel used and alone.

 

Does anyone have any advice?

[rosephase]

Move out...

[BriarRose]

You must get out of there. You have made every effort and tried to talk to her. You have been the bigger person here. That comment she made about killing yourself was just heartless. You do sound like a good person.