Tell Me Why Posted June 2, 2010 Share Posted June 2, 2010 It's been 6 months since my ex officially walked out on the relationship and moved accross the country. 6 months prior to that, she broke up with me but we remained in contact and started dating again until we decided to get back together in December 2009. Shortly after that, something occurred and she officially ended it and moved to Hawaii. I won't go into the details of why it ended because it doesn't even matter at this point. About 1 month and a half ago, she called me and left a drunken message telling me how she just feels broken and confused and misses me so much and will never love anyone like she loved me and that she is so upset about the way things ended. I responded with a message telling her that messages like that weren't a good idea and that we needed to heal. I felt like during these past 6 months I started to heal and go in the right direction. I felt like seeing other people might be a good idea. I had a crush on this woman for a while, so about 2 weeks ago I asked her out and she said yes. She has kind of been flaky ever since and I called her this past weekend and left a message asking her to do something this weekend. I haven't heard back from her and so naturally, I felt rejected. This feeling of rejection has brought back all these feelings about my ex. All of a sudden, when I thought I was getting over her, I miss her so much again. I feel like I'll never find what I had with her with anyone else. I feel so lost and confused again. I feel broken. I feel like I no longer want to live. I just feel like an idiot for thinking I was getting better. I realize I wasn't really healing at all, I was becoming infatuated with another person and it took my mind off of my ex. Now that I feel rejected by this other person, I feel like I'm back to square one. I feel just as hurt as I did 6 months ago. I ended up calling my ex and speaking to her last night. I pretty much told her what she told me in that sob message she left me a month and a half ago. She got upset and said that she was better now and that we both needed to move on. She then dropped the bomb that she was seeing someone else, which made me feel even worse. I've been crying non-stop, I feel pathetic, worthless, and I feel like it will never get better. I feel like I don't want to live anymore and that for some reason, happiness will never find me. I just don't know what to do anymore besides vent on here and hope someone will have some decent advice for me, because I just feel like there is no end in sight for this pain. Link to comment
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