alice1485 Posted May 17, 2010 Share Posted May 17, 2010 So, I broke up with my boyfriend 5 months ago. The reason was his drinking problems and diminished respect for me. Since our break up, I went NC for a month and a half, and had not seen him for 4 1/2 months. Still though, I felt I loved him. And in the back of my mind, I hoped he would change so we'd get back together. He and I decided to meet this past weekend. I expected to be filled with joy at the sight of him, but all I felt was confusion. And as we spoke, the only thing I kept thinking was 'Oh my god, I don't love him anymore.' But then we went to lunch and gradually the awkwardness faded and my feelings for him came back. He promised me that if I took him back this time would be different. He's even looking for a counselor to help him with his problems. I told him I'd think about it and that we'd have to take it slow if we decided to try again. My question to you all is: Is it strange that my first reaction was that I didn't love him? Should I be worried about that? Or should I just trust what I felt the majority of the time - comfort, joy and happiness to be with him and wanting to try again? Link to comment
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