he wont stop contacting me

[prettyhate]

ok so i thought yesterday was it the sorting out of stuff and finances was done

then he calls me today going just checking u got taht money i left under the door sorry for so man y calls and i said

we have been through this yes i got the money i have told you that - you have to stop calling me.........

ppart of me thought yes he is missing me

part of me wanted to cry

part of me was angry

part of me wanted to say how dare you

you have hurt me beyond repair from cheating on me then breaking up with me after wanting to repair everythingggggggggggggggggggggggg

argh i dont know

what is he doing

[Aschleigh]

He misses you . But is he ready to do the work it takes to heal after infidelity . Like going to counseling, really hearing your anger, etc..?

[prettyhate]

well i am not sure.. i called him back tonight because my membership that got cancelled he pays for and there was a remainding payment and i cant pay it - i dont like to leave money issues so i feel stupid for contacting him after telling him not to contact me

i think he did it because he wants his cake and eat it too well he cant have just jen that he wants without all the drama and issues

and he will never come to me and say hey i have thought about this...

he is too i dunno " male" and he just will go out and hook up

im going to try NC from now there is nothing else to discuss