steviesangel

just needed to write this i guess For anyone who has read my previous posts then u know what i am talking about. Its been nearly a month since i last saw him now, and just seems like forever. Trying to keep myself busy, but still he fills my thoughts, every second, of every day. Im scared to sleep as when i do i dream of him and for a split second when i awake it feels so real, and i turn over but he is not there. I have always prayed to god once a week or something. But now i find myself praying to god every night. Anyway, sure u guys are sick of hearing from me now.

ok im going to try and tell the full story because i need lots of peoples advice. Last year i started going out with a man who i have kind of known since i was 12, he is a year older than me, and although we never actually spoke to one another, we remembered each other, we both had said we always looked at each other etc but nothing ever happened. A mutual friend finally got things started between us. The 1st night we went out, he explained to me that he was still married and had 2 children but been separated for approx 2 years which i already knew. He said she was a very selfish person but didnt go into alot of detail. We dated for about a month and got along amazingly, so much in common, was like we were 1 person. Then he didnt turn up 1 nite and the next day he said he stayed at his wifes and they spoke all nite and that they were giving it another go. I didnt understand why as over the month we were together he told me more about her, about how she threw him through a shop window, how she constantly hit him infront of the kids, and alot more. Now this hurt me, but i hoped that at somepoint we could become friends as we got along so well. 2 days after we split a friend of his and his wife turned up at my door asking if he was here and told him we were no longer together etc, i invited him in , in the hopes i could sly some info from him. Instead he tried to bed me then when i turned him down he said that steve hated me that i would never see him again and many other things. 4 weeks later a friend of mine told steve everything his friend had said and done and we got talking, the next day he came round to lend me a few cd's that i had been after, a friendship began that nite. Over a few days, we got very drunk one night ended up in bed etc etc I tried to make it look like it was a mistake and we wouldnt do it again, he took offence which i was hoping he would do and we started seeing each other again, this time more serious, i met his children and his family who all fell in love with me. He told me he loved me and wanted to be with me forever and that for the 1st time in his life i had shown him wot happiness was, i felt the same. Over the time we were together i knew she was sending text messages, trying to get him back, she caused alot of trouble saying the kids were not allowed round my house and all sorts. i overheard a phone call to her one nite telling her he didnt want to lose me again and leave him alone. then, about 8 months into our relationship he turns up at my house one nite, tells me he wants space, its over etc. i try and ask if its because he is getting back with his wife, he tells me no, just that he not ready for a relationship, a few days ago i find out it wasnt space, he is living their again, and already she has started being violent and he has returned to his parents for nite or two. All i know is that if it wasnt for her we would be fine. I have heard the children are missing me badly. I know they dont like their mum. I want him and the kids back and dont know what to do. 2 weeks after we split up he came to collect some of his things and there was a lot of flirting from both sides and the 2 hours he stayed it was like we were still together, laughing and joking. As he left, he kissed me went to the door said "I miss You" then closed the door before I had chance to reply. Since then I have not heard anything from him. I just know that I need him and the kids. Please help.

thank u mark, lets hope he misses the respect and things i do, the kids loved being here because they said my house doesnt smell and u play games with us. Being with him and his kids made me feel like i wasa happy to be me for once. Thanx again mark x

hey there, no one can give u smart advice on this u have to choose. All i can do is tell u about my friend who got pregnant at 14 and her choice to keep the baby. There was alot of hassle from the boyfriends mum, trying to make her have abortion. But she stuck by her choice because she had people she could turn to for help etc, her mum although she went crazy at her at 1st helped her all the way thru it. She continued with her education thru the pregnancy. and her mum helped her and the baby after she gave birth. She works part time now and its all ok. But if you are worried about what your parents etc will say and do then dont, its too late for them to scream and shout at you, its happened, decide what to do from here speak to them in a way that is calm. But at the end of the day it is YOUR choice.

ok im going to try and tell the full story because i need lots of peoples advice. Last year i started going out with a man who i have kind of known since i was 12, he is a year older than me, and although we never actually spoke to one another, we remembered each other, we both had said we always looked at each other etc but nothing ever happened. A mutual friend finally got things started between us and the 1st night we went out, he explained to me that he was still married and had 2 children but been separated for approx 2 years which i already knew. He said she was a very selfish person but didnt go into alot of detail. we dated for about a month and got along amazingly, so much in common, was like we were 1 person. Then he didnt turn up 1 nite and the next day he said he stayed at his wifes and they spoke all nite and that they were giving it another go. I didnt understand why as over the month he told me more about her, about how she threw him through a shop window, how she constantly hit him infront of the kids, and alot more. Now this hurt me, but i hoped that at somepoint we could become friends as we got along so well. 2 days after we split a friend of his and his wife turned up at my door asking if he was here and told him we were no longer together etc, i invited him in , in the hopes i could sly some info from him. Instead he tried to bed me then when i turned him down he said that steve hated me that i would never see him again and many other things. 4 weeks later a friend of mine told steve everything his friend had said and done and we got talking, the next day he came round to lend me a few cd's that i had been after, a friendship began that nite. Over a few days, we got very drunk one night ended up in bed etc etc I tried to make it look like it was a mistake and we wouldnt do it again, he took offence which i was hoping he would do and we started seeing each other again, this time more serious, i met his children and his family who all fell in love with me. He told me he loved me and wanted to be with me forever and that for the 1st time in his life i had shown him wot happiness was, i felt the same. Over the time we were together i knew she was sending text messages, trying to get him back, she caused alot of trouble saying the kids were not allowed round my house and all sorts. i overheard a phone call to her one nite telling her he didnt want to lose me again and leave him alone. then, he turns up at my house one nite, tells me he wants space, its over etc. i try and ask if its because he is getting back with his wife, he tells me no, just that he not ready for a relationship, a few days ago i find out it wasnt space, he is living their again, and already she has started being violent and he has returned to his parents for nite or two. All i know is that if it wasnt for her we would be fine. I have heard the children are missing me badly. I know they dont like their mum. I want him and the kids back and dont know what to do.