maggieMAE

I miss you so much. I wish you'd realize what you had and took for granted for so long. I wish you'd tell me you missed me and royally screwed up. At the same time, I don't miss your crap. I wish things could have been different. I struggle daily with not talking to you. I hate how much it doesn't even phase you. I doubt I'll ever find a love like that again. I'm sorry for everything I did.

I'm starting to forget what you look like. Kinda like when you say a word over and over and it loses its meaning.

I can't believe you poked fun at my pain. You shouldn't make fun of someone whose heart you ripped out. Not after 3 years. Not after everything we've been through together. It's not funny that I'm hurting. It's pretty disgusting that you even get a kick out of it. I'm glad I didn't feed your assumption, but you're very right. I hope in time you realize you can't hurt people like that. Just leave me alone, you're insensitive and I'm sensitive, and I just can't handle it anymore. I'm finding happiness on my own and I don't need you mucking it up anymore. I wish it could be with you, but I know after everything that's happened, it would just never be the same again. So what other choice do I have but to let go? I miss the way I thought you were.

Congrats!!! That is awesome. Do post an update if you are willing to share. I'm sure it would benefit a lot of readers.

Bahaha, that dance is hilarious! If mine ever shows up (and I'm still vengeful) I'm gonna slam the door, do that dance, and walk right back in the house. JK, JK. Kinda.

Did you really thinking leaving me a voicemail of that song would help? I couldn't even identify it right away since you were driving (probably from your new gf's house) and it was playing over your broken car speakers. A voicemail of a song we loved isn't going to bring me back after all of the destruction you caused. I'm not that simple. I'm almost offended that you think I'm some little girl who will fall all over herself over a stupid song. Have some mercy and leave me alone. Leaving voicemails of songs to someone who is broken hearted is very inconsiderate of their healing. If I hurt you, I would disappear so you could breathe and move on. You should do the same. Also, I liked that song before you came into my life. It wasn't ours. It was mine. Nice try tho.

Day 01. (Well, it's really been a week or two, but I wanna start from 1 since lately I've had the urge to contact) Long story short, we were together for 3 years. She needed a "break", dumped me a week later, moved on a few weeks after that. I'm pissed. I'm hurt. She spoke of marriage the day before it happened. She spoke of how we could fix the ongoing problems we were having. But she threw that away. You don't give up on someone if you love them deeply. You also don't blame them and make them feel guilty when really you're the one f***ing around. But now I realize the gang of girls she surrounded herself with was just her lining up women to take my spot. She was constantly searching for bigger and better. I'm ready to let go and move on. Sometimes I still get a little feeling of hope, but I've been making sure to kill that. Who cares if she ever contacts me again? If she loved me she'd be breaking down my front door right now.