Day 1 again, I guess?
I did a really bad thing and called him last night asking if he wanted to talk about things. He said no, because every time we talk it "ends badly" and I said that wouldn't happen this time. He then got mad and said "Wow, so this is your definition of not clingy?"
It feels like I'm really losing him, though maybe that's why it was so much easier today...
I woke up missing him more than I had in a while, cried a little, then went on my merry way. I'm keeping my phone completely off and I guess that really helps. I'm going to try and keep this up until Monday when we HAVE to see each other, and asses the situation from there.