Lain

Dublin Sky Version 2.0 I've been on my own again tonight No one cares to think of me No one knows what's wrong with me The clouds cover up my scarred heart's sky There's just nothing left of me There's just nothing right with me See, I try to keep my distance and I always do my best I can't tarnish all my memories That's why I find myself thinking of you Of you I remember watching, laughing, making plans Trying to get you to notice me Trying to get you to fall for me My trembling heart would beat so fast You had fun ignoring me Staying far away from me When my self-control was slipping It was all the same to you If I hadn't been around at all You would have easily moved on without me Without me There's still a chance for me to try again To once more, while next to you, get mesmerized by the beauty of your eyes I always thought I could've made it through Right now, I don't want anything but you But you How many days will I have to regret you? How many nights till I forget you? Have I been wasting all the time? Is love such a crime? How many hopes to be left behind me? How many broken dreams to cure me? Have I been buried in your dirt? Did you have to cause this hurt? How many loads did I let you hijack? For how long can I stand in the playback? How did I end up sitting here? My feelings I wish I could sear?

I should gather all my guts together to take over you or let you go Late at night, alone, what do you dream of, while the life around us is a flow? Days, weeks, months pass by, but my affection all my wishes have remained unchanged You have never cared for me, will you ever? My young nature is worn out, not enraged I laugh at myself: a try -- a failure What is good for you and worth your precious time? Counting all the scars my heart now bears, I will write another truthful rhyme How many time and words and songs to waste to make you take a look in my direction? I know you are too good to give you up Oh, love, the epitome of imperfection! ^ Please go easy on this one; I composed it yesterday at 3 AM.

Well, actually, I am quite an optimistic person, and I only compose poems when I am feeling extremely bad! This is the way it goes, I cannot help it.

Thanks! Dedicated to [...] Out of sight, out of heart Not a such, I'm torn apart Am I blind? I cannot see Who you are you'll always be "Hope dies last, again, just wait," Mind says, "No, it is too late!" I will soon forget the past and get rid of you at last!

Denying the face of God Rejecting the idea of Belief I still hear angels singing above me and demons growling underneath. Together we cut the thorns of life During our voyage to the Milky Way "One can never ever be truly happy without knowing the pain," I say Watch in awe my solo flight I am free to fly, aeria gloris Pull me back again – my feet touch the ground - and revive the dreams of past glories. There is no other way out but to deeply breathe for more The depths of longing rise, while the spirits fall to the core. Human beings live eagerly when they are lucky enough to have a good reason If you stand alone, your existence must be nothing else than a boring season. Neverendless race makes us feel alive Not to fall on the run, just not to forget How to dream, how to love, how to yearn for what's left We will be able, I bet!

Another one.. There are so many freaks but not enough circuses They despise everybody taken by shallow purposes My friend, yes, you are special just like everyone else Ha ha, do you now get it, slave of social spells? Not at all is it sensible: Arrogance for no reason I regret to inform you: Your mind is your own prison! What makes us all human is long ago gone Pride, wrath, envy, lust, sloth, celebrate: we are done!

New poems.. My inmost soul, my inner self or selves? Ambivalent. Yes and no. The wanted thing, both mute and calling, what is it? Lack of gratitude. Hello again, Ms Conscience, speak then listen: I can't stand your whistle! There is a goal born long ago - hush! - I will never let it go.

Well, only the third stanza, just_smile. The poem in general was written during a bad period of my life when nothing seemed to be going right. I am perfectly fine now, however. No worries.

Is back occasionally When my sun sets, By a taper, I take out my pen and paper. Happy once, Now full of sadness - Going high and low is madness. Stay away, You always do! I have lost my patience, too. Come, change, come, I'm not a moaner, Just a loner, loner..

I barely made it through today again. The days are all the same. A thought I cannot turn away: Is it my fault? Is it your aim? I'm tired of this feeling- pain. It chilled me to the bone. I haven't seen your sun for weeks, Too long, too far from home. I know you are right there, somewhere. My tears now glow and sound. I want to burst out crying loud Falling to the ground. Where do we go from here? Nowhere.. I still believe in love. For those who don't: Through all the time you'll never rise above.

A countenance that is haunting your mind, familiar and plain. When he vanishes gratiutously into the night, you both go insane. A picture-a cloud that is curdling again above your laugh. Raining down the same, taking over the place when you walk the path. A moment you was lucky to catch of his distant life. A glance the eyes bear stuck in them- Nothingness and drive.

I am feeling your pain when you are down Reaching out my hands to the martyr's crown. The dazzling silence has made me blind Not being numb like a soul in the grind. I will dance on the broken glass by your side Without asking myself about fatuous pride. The feelings seem as if they were stars Showing up everywhere in your absense that chars.

I could try and get myself out of this place If you didn't rub off your indistinct trace Now someone must take me away from here To the realm of happiness we should steer In those depths echos a silent scream For these torments are more than a wicked whim I sense presense of yours then feel satiated My nature was newly invigorated Pitiful humans need just a bit Emotional polychrome tends to hit Nothing will crush the hidden potential Temptation of giving is too influential Letting go everything that restricts our limit Deadly fraud may rule when they've proved us timid You are still caged which I know for sure Revive, join the dance or forget about cure

Thank you. Here we go. From caress to indifference Either right or wrong Being two-faced and puzzling Could you last for long?! She sheds her skins The essense is ultimate If you do the same Think twice, it's intimate Both minds are twisted There is no doubt Her all craves for backup That's what it's about Look around yourself See the sacrificed Hurt her one more time She is mesmerized Everything is inconstant Wounds like opened doors She will not let go The choice is yours

Thank you, you make me feel great by liking my poetry. Here is something I just wrote: You don't seem to understand I can't force myself to explain From time to time I'm diving deep Into the whirlpool of snow white pain There's nothing wrong about being self-centered We are what we are by nature, it's right Once your interior blows with this anguish You've known the taste of losing the light The last thing I want is to make you feel guilty It's not your fault, the problem is mine However, care means being warm inside It would be enough to ask: 'Are you fine?' I wonder how I could go that far Now recognizing my paths' track It will be good, I let it all out Just give me my broken life back! Cheers!

I'm huddled up with my knees to my chest Rocking back and forth to an unknown beat I turned my back to the world today To get over it, to admit defeat I try then fail to lock feelings away They keep on making me helpless and weak The joy and pain of emotions are sweet When the bloom of despair is not at its peak I'm still drawn to your flame like a small silly moth Atop my knees there is now my face All your words mean something only to me Everybody knows I'm a head hopeless case All I want is to hide but I can't decide how Crystal clear paths; yours, theirs, mine I was probably meant to watch you all live If I don't need to exist, fine

I can't cut myself off The things I should let go I am sane, I have will The heart's bringing me low Have you ever thought It would happen to me!? What a clear thinking girl Fate turned traitor, you see I am not wholly broken There are pieces to fix The two worlds are not too close Oil and water may mix If it only was possible To get out of my shell I'd be glad to give up it all To drown into your hell It is driving me mad Plaintive, bitterly sweet Love!? I don't think so Destined bound, that's it! Take a look around us See the routine existence We are larger than this I quit the persistence You are making my day When I'm down or mad If I know you are there It will never be bad A gesture, a word Can be enough To make me drop my mask Of a social tough Let it be, let it flow I have treasure to share Friends and soulmates are bliss Always, everywhere

I wonder why I bother to care When I turn around there is noone there If I were to drop dead or die right now You'd be bound to think of me by a vow The colors keep slowly fading away The real world, the routine, and its sway I don't want to wear a mask anymore If I can't be me, what my life is for!? Deep down inside I may soon be dead If you care to help, be my life-saving thread I need just a bit, let me make you see How lost I am in the ocean of me I feel more behind every single thing You ironically laugh at what makes me sing I easily get what you're fighting for I told you I'm different down to the core

Hey, neva, you are brilliant at analyzing things. Actually, I started writing poems about a few days ago. I had no idea i could compose poems earlier. It came very unexpectedly. Yes, I put very direct speech in my poems. I can't write about who-knows-what, I need personal experiences. I want my poems to be sincere and maybe help other people who may have the same problem. I know I'm not alone and there are people who are going through the same out there.

Here is a poem I've just written. I don't mind if you hurt me 'Though it's not what I want I know you can do nothing You know it's not my fault What's the point if I tell you What I feel, how I feel Take a look at my actions Can't you see I'm for real? I love reading your mind And you don't like to share I will make you trust me Being always there You are lonely, touchy Worried and scared I will take the first step If you are prepared This may be wrong Do you bother to care? The real world is not real I beg you to dare Break the borders, the rules Let the prejudice flee Never tell me again: "Love's not my cup of tea!"

You are quite right and that impresses me. Anyway, it is a long and complictaed story but you definitely got right some of the aspects. Your last words especially.

I'm awake in the cold I need to share I wonder why there is noone to care Nowhere to hide Nowhere to run I lose the ability of having fun I watch my life Time passes fast I know that my current state can't last I am a sinner I'm not a saint I will say that the prize I pay make me faint There is pain I'm forced to hide The beautiful me rottens inside I'm halfway there I continue the fall The problem is you don't know me at all An infinite loop I wish I could cry Indifference, loneliness have made me dry I'm all alone It is oh so wrong There is only me in this world and my song I don't give up I am still there I let you know it is hard to bear It cannot happen I must win the fight I'm sure you don't want me dead, right? Thank you for the attention.

Hey there and thank you for replying to my thread. Unfortunately what you ask me to do is not possible. He lives in another country and arranging a meeting right now is impossible. Oh dammit, I miss him.

Hey, guys! I wonder how to start my message. Yes, I met Him online and I'm falling for Him. Everything I feel for Him is freaking me out because all the people around keep on telling me that cyberspace relationship is wrong. It is not a problem for me to meet a guy in the real life. What can I do if He is exactly what I'm looking for? We have lots of things in common and at the same time we are so different. I guess this is what makes us complete. There are lots of threads out there like this one. I'm sorry but I needed to share because I'm not telling anyone about it all. I know noone will understand. Finally, the only problem is that He doesn't know anything. We've made really good friends and we can chat 24/7 but I don't think he feels something of a kind for me. Besides, I don't think He is ready to hear what I'd like to tell him from me.

I would like to say that don't think of every person you meet as a potential girlfriend. Meeting someone you are looking for comes unexpectedly.