Day 1
Previously it had been 8 days of NC, and then 5 days of NC. The first break was I went to her brothers wedding wearing a suit she she helped me choose for when we went dancing. I had been so looking forward to the wedding before she broke up with me. I also managed to tell her she looked nice (she was in the wedding party) but that probably didn't help me any.
The second break, which was yesterday, her OTHER brother, who happens to be my best friend, was in the hospital with his pregnant wife who was about to give birth. Let's just say that 12 uncomfortable hours in a waiting room with the ex and her family was one of the worst experiences of my life. And trying to be happy for my friend and his baby. Even how cute she looked didn't make me happy. I had told the ex when we broke up that I didn't want to stay friends, but during those 12 hours we went through some weird periods. Periods of avoidance, periods of pretending to be friends, and periods where I sat in a corner wanting to rip her head off. It sucked to see her get hugs from friends and her mom when she is being so cold to me. How could someone who a mere 2 weeks ago we shared such a passionate loving relationship treat me this way? She's like a 100% different person.
I feel like I'm an alien in this world now. Sigh. Well Day 1 again. Her mom invited me to the avengers that they are all going to. I think I have to say no. This doesn't help that I was close to her family before we dated, and that we go to the same church of only around 200 people. At least we aren't living together.
