I have been married four years. I have a three year old and a one year old. I've been a stay-at-home mom for four years. My husband works almost twelve hours a day, six days a week. I enjoy staying home with my kids. They are at times difficult, being young and full of energy. In addition to my caring for the children, I cook, clean, do laundry, do the household budget, do the grocery shopping (with the kids), and .just recently the yard work. My husband is always gone since he works all of the time. Whenever he is home all he does is watch tv, play video games, leave a mess wherever he's been. He cannot even watch the children when I want to take a break, he has no patience to go chasing after the one year old nor the patience to try to understand what my three year old is saying. He never takes me out. Always has an excuse like he's either too tired or we have no money or he'd say he isn't sure how long he'd be at work. But if one of his siblings or a friend wants to go out, he willingly goes. We cannot have a conversation without us getting into a fight. I feel he doesn't even listen to me when I talk to him. When I "let loose" from exhaustion, I cry. I cry from frustration and fatigue. Instead of comforting me, he becomes angry because "all I do is cry". Whenever I ask him to to do something, such as, mow the lawn. He says he will. Two weeks later, it's not done. I badger him to do it, then I'm a nag. I'm a nag whenever I ask for his help. He is so inconsiderate. I would be struggling with bags of groceries and instead of helping me, he'd pass me by. Then to top if off, I have "major" issues with his mother. She's a mean, cruel woman. She insults me right and left and in front of him. Not because I did or said anything bad to her. She's just that type of person, meaning, when she's miserable, she wants everyone to be miserable. He never defends me. When I bring it up to him, he responds by saying, "Oh she said that?" or "You're making things up" or "What do you want me to do? Kill her?" As if to say. "Oh well. Live with it." I get so frustrated. I try to talk to him. I tell him things like, "I want to do something fun" or "Why is is it I have to do everything by myself?" "Why can't you defend me whenver your mother insults me?" He responds by saying that I am "Self important" and "Selfish" and that all I care about is "me, me, me". Once I was just so tired of all the housework, chasing after the kids, getting insulted by his mother, and lack of sleep that I cried and cried and couldn't stop. He looked at me as if he were disgusted and told me that I was crazy and that I should get help. That made me so angry that I hit him and I said, "I hate you." And he responded by saying, "Go ahead, keep hitting me. I'll call the police on you and show them my bruises. Then I'll take the kids away from you because you're crazy and violent." That was the last time I hit him. Since then, I've swallowed all my anger and frustrations. Then today was just it. I got so tired of waiting for him to mow the lawn. Our lawn resembled a jungle. I got up at 6:00 in the morning since the kids were asleep, I tried to mow the lawn. But the lawn mower broke, so I got on my hands and knees and used a kitchen knife to cut the weeds and grass. I was so tired and exhausted. He comes out to go to work looks at me like I'm a piece of crap and said, "What did you use to cut the grass?" "Kitchen knife" I responded, "You need to do the rest." He said, "I'm not going to use a kitchen knife." Then he turned up his nose and told me to move the garbage can because he couldn't back out of the driveway. I could barely move and he wanted ME to do it. So I did it, then he said, "Oh, by the way, the kids are awake and they're hungry." With those words he left...I went inside and cried. I cried right along with my hungry one year old. I want to divorce him, but I'm terrified that he'll take my children away from me. Am I over acting? Please help..