I haven't read the entire post (40 pages? wow)... but ill chime in my 2 cents...
Shinobie... From your last post, I can already get a feel for what's happening here... Sometimes i feel the same way... I too am 20, single, and somewhat of a virgin, so I know how it feels. First off... I have learned some things recently that have changed my views on the whole "I'm ugly so girls don't like me" attitude... If you don't change that, trust me, you'll be single for a very long time. I have learned that Confidence goes a VERY long way.
Feeling ugly and whatever does take that away...but you must remember, that if you keep telling yourself something, no matter how untrue it may be....eventually you will come to believe it. Whether you're ugly or not, that's in the eye of the beholder; each and every person has a different opinion of what they think is good looking, and what they think is ugly.
(side note: I have also come to notice that even if one does not think of themselves as good looking, they're not automatically ugly)
Rather than keep saying that you're ugly, you have an ugly whatever... i know it's easier said than done...but find something about you that you like...don't say you can't...find something....and rather than say you have an ugly whatever, just keep thinking to yourself "I have a very nice blah" or whatever.... just to give yourself a little bit of confidence. Women arent always looking for a pretty face or a slim figure... its all about what you can do with what you have that gets them all worked up. (money, large appendage, big muscles....whatever...its all the same). Women know that people that have these traits are just more confident....the confidence shows. thereforeeee, Women like confidence.
Now comon, shinobie... if you thought women were so evil, would you be hurting so bad that you don't have one? thinking that way will only make you feel worse, you'll start feeling sorry for yourself, and that is only incredibly more detrimental to yourself and acheiving your goal.
And speaking of goals...right now, you're too self depricating to find yourself a girl.... I'll tell you that flat out right now. Women don't want someone that will keep cutting away at themselves...how can a guy compliment and make a girl feel good if he can't feel good about himself? What you need to do first is do something so that you start feeling better about yourself...maybe start lifting weights or go jogging or whatever...anything to give you something to look forward to (im giving you examples from my own perspective... I am overweight, and that's what brings me down....looking forward to a leaner figure or bigger muscles...that definitely gives me something to look forward to.) Why? because honestly, if i keep thinking that girls won't like me because I'm overweight or whatever...that's exactly what'll happen. Girls don't necessarily want a skinny guy....but they don't want a guy that's large and can't stop feelings sorry for himself because of that... lose the insecurities, and you'll gain the confidence...and like I said, the easiest way to do that is to improve yourself... the actions will have a greater effect than the results... trust me on that one.
Right now, a girl is not going to make you feel better or all that much happier.... the way you cut yourself down, she'll get tired of it, and the resulting breakup will only make things worse. Concentrate on improving yourself, how you feel about yourself... then once you have that confidence, take the next step....go out with friends, whatever... its a slow journey, but in the end it pays off... you just have to work at it.... cutting yourself down and feeling sorry for yourself will NOT get you anywhere.