UltimaW

I wish I had the answer to your questions, I posted too asking about a similar situation i.e. liking a girl with a boyfriend. Afraid all I can do is let you know there is atleast one person in your type of situation. I know it makes me feel better.

This situation is nothing I have ever experienced in my life. This girl in my ELP class, JoAnn, sat next to me for the whole year. We hardly ever talked to each other, I'm quiet she is pretty free spirited. Towards the end of the school year she would need a ride home. I just getting my licsense wanted badly to help here out, but I'm very shy so I didn't say anything. One day in the parking lot I guess she saw me in my car as I was getting ready to leave school. She ran up to the window, made small talk, and asked for a ride home. I was very happy with this, as you could imagine, a girl I've had a crush on the whole year is all of a sudden in my car. This went on for awhile, me taking her home. I had smoked weed once before and loved it, but the person that had the 'connections' moved away. She wanted to know if I would like to smoke if she could get some, I said sure. So we smoke a few times, just us and now I'm being invited to her 'friends' house to smoke. Now this friend actually turns out to be her boyfriend. It didn't affect me as much as you probably think it would at first, mainly because I was high when I realized how far in the relationship they were. Anyway they ended up leaving to a back room where I'm sure they were having sex.. blah blah. They leave me with the guy's fat ugly sister. Sometimes they joke about how she needs a boyfriend. I do a lot for her.. she calls sometimes just to see what I'm doing and whenever its her I always brighten up. I really enjoy being around her she is beautiful and has an amazing personality. I'm scared of rejection more than anything, I can't figure out if I should maybe make a move and make it even more obvious that I'm really interested in her. There is also a problem with my parents. I'm white and she is I guess mixed with a white father in the millitary and black mother. I don't know what there response will be, not that I care at all. But I do have to live with them right now being only 16 and I would like it to be as comfortable as possible until I can leave. But most importantly the already having a boyfriend factor comes into play. Its so annoying he is just using her for sex. Her and a friend went in a local mall to look around while he and I waited in the car. He said a lot of dumb stuff.. said he was through with her.. that type of stuff. If I said anything about that it would make me look even more insane right? like I was trying my damnnest to break them up. Well thats pretty much my story, and I need help bad. Anyone who has some advice, I welcome it gladly. If you would like to know any other stuff about the situation just ask I'll be happy to answer if it can get me on the right track.