kgirl

lol--keep your head up john!!! We can SO do this!!

Oh boy, text from him this morning "I miss you Of course you do, I'm amazing! Ya big fat jerk. Day 37 of no contact. Thought about breaking it, but decided not to.

Day 35. Accidental blank text on Sunday which I am not counting at all, also he responded immediately with a blank text of his own so I know he's thinking of me. What a butthead.

Day 24 and I am missing my old "best friend"... Grrr. Though best friends don't abandon one another--break up with me just to beg for me back just to break up with me AGAIN!!!!!!!!! Need a new best friend!!!

Had a great time last night, even kissed one guy and gave another guy my number. Hey, I'm single! And they were cute! But today, feeling kind of low and obsessive. Annoying that meeting good guys makes me think of my ex, and when we met, and how much I wish we could meet each other again. Really want it out of my mind but am unsure how. Day 23 NC for me. Baaah. Haven't heard jack from him since he commented on my blog on Sunday with something cute he used to say to me. Wow, he's not making this easy--just throwing me enough scraps to miss him...

Yes it's about us!! Day 18 for me and missing him today...and then I think to myself--were all the little things I miss worth the enormous price I paid for being in that relationship? The heartache, the uncertainty, the walking on eggshells, the pretending I liked that TV show or that friend, the not doing what I wanted to do for fear of annoying the controlling man in my life, the feeling like I wasn't pretty or good enough to keep him?? OH HELL NO!!!! Going 8 weeks baby, just you watch!!!!

Day 16 and I am feeling a little weird--was totally fine but for some reason am thinking of him today. He still sucks though! HANG IN THERE EVERYONE! I'm going 8 WEEKS. aaah!

bstrong-- You don't have to just get your weekly therapy session. Google "email therapy" and "phone therapy". If you bring in some of those and are able to pay for it, you can have one session every day. Maybe right now for the next week it would be well worth it. Also, posting and posting and posting on here until you feel okay walking away from this forum for an hour, and then a day, and then a week WILL HELP. Reading through other people's experiences will too. Also, are you exercising every day? Honestly, this will help you beyond everything else. Can you take a long weekend to visit one of your out of state friends? Take some time to visit your family? Take up a new hobby in a group setting to meet some new people (again, craigslist or a community center should really help with this)? How about volunteering at your local animal shelter or halfway house? Some of this will distract, some others will give you perspective, but I promise you this, eventually if you keep throwing your energy back into yourself, you will feel better. You will feel a little bit better one day at a time. And one day you will feel great. You may get back together with her years later, you may meet someone else and love them more than you could have ever imagined. I absolutely believe that you can do this. You must take care of yourself right now. Can you get a massage? Can you eat your favorite food for dinner three nights in a row? Can you pick up a good book, see a movie, walk around the house naked, whatever it does to make you feel better? Have you ordered some self-help books online--like how to break your addiction to a person, how to get over a break-up in 30 days, etc.? Do these things as much as you possibly can. Channeling your energy will give you the strength you need to move forward. And don't forget, we are here and in pain too. We are all in rehab together. Take care, k

Day 14 for me, and last night he texted me an unhappy smiley face. Well boo hoo! I've been an "unhappy smiley face" for months, ya jerk! NO RESPONSE FROM ME for such a small gesture. Oh, this is getting fun now to gain myself back. Plan on going another month before making any decisions about try to reconcile or not... KEEP GOING EVERYONE!!!!!

Day 13 for me...he came to pick up his stuff at my apartment last night only to find that I wasn't there, his stuff was in a pile and my roommates and I have moved out! He has no clue where I am now, and it feels like I'm getting some power back. Mwah hah hah.

Day 8 of NC. Plan on going 6 weeks! Woo hoo! (May see him Sunday while moving since he needs to get his couch from my apartment, but will look great, apathetic instead of pathetic and breeze on by)