I am sorry you are going through all of this. He is numb to everything that is going on because of the drugs. He probably thinks this is short term punishment for what he has done to you and you will take him back eventually. What you need to think about is yourself right now. I understand that it hurts and you love him. You also need to realize that a relationship can't work if it is only one sided. He needs to make himself better before he can give any part of himself to you.