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Oh, I guess I should have mentioned something. I don't concentrate on the negative things. She just asked and I told her the truth. She asked how I was feeling today and I made her realize that I really didn't care if my ex broke up with me. I was like, she was a stupid girl anyway and she gave me a high five. She was definitely looking in to my eye, but from what other people say she's like that with everone so I asked if she had a boyfriend and she said no. When I asked why she said that the right guy isn't out there. I was like, yeah there are, you just aren't looking in the right places. After that, she had to get back to work so we didn't get to talk about much after that. Yeah, I'm not down on the glumps or anything. In fact, i've been feeling great and I'm ready to meet new people

I recently started working at Macys in the men's shoe departement about 3 weeks ago. In the department in front of me, I noticed someone. Whenever she works there I can't help and glance to see what she's doing and wondering what she is like. She has friends in my department and eats in our stock room during her lunch break since it's the closest room she can eat in. She has friends in my department too and she likes talking A LOT and shes a very crazy out of control girl, which I find attractive Anyway, I guess I wouldn't be so interested except for the fact that I sometimes catch her looking at me. Of course, I'm not going to just pick out specific instances, I'm sure she looks around at other people and wonder what they're doing. Yesterday though, when she was having her lunch break in the stock room, I would pass by her a few times. While looking for some shoes, I catch her friend (who was also eating with her) looking at me from the corner of my eye. When I turned my view her way she suddenly went back to eating, not saying a word and pretending she wasn't looking at all. After a while, they got tired and asked why I don't talk to them. I told them it was because I'm just shy. So they told me that I shouldn't be shy around them and that's how we got our conversation going. It was a normal conversation, whatever, but in the middle of it she asked if I had a girlfriend. I told her the story of how my last ex broke up with me for a new computer and she kept saying that I shouldn't feel bad and that there's always someone better out there. Do you think Ashely might be interested in me? I'm not sure if she is, and I wouldn't be surprised if she had a boyfriend (I was too busy to ask and she left before I got a chance to talk to her again.) I don't know, I'm just wondering if there is any other reason someone would ask if I had a GF. Also, any idea of how I can continue the conversation? I'm kind of intimidated by her and I'm not sure if I'm in her league, and I wouldn't know what else to say.

It didn't work. I tried telling her that I wanted to have no contact with her and she was so upset (again). I told her my reasons for why it's a good idea and she thought it was all stupid. She kept calling me immature and that having no contact is not the only way to get over someone. She says that I should concentrate on the positives in my life and stop worrying about her. She also says that she'll always be with me if I needed someone to talk to. She wants me to mature and she wants to be 100 percent positive that she is the only one I need in my life. I believe she wants to keep me around to see me mature and see me become a better person. She wants to make sure I learned my lesson and suffered the consequences before she could even consider reconciling. She said that if we were really meant to be with each other, then we would find a way back together. Maybe it's better if I don't think about it, because we do have great conversations with each other. I don't know. I really don't know what I want.

I talked to her again last night. We had a conversation for a while, then I started to tell her that I don't want to be the waterboy to her relationship. I don't want to be a part of her life if it means that I'm going to be hanging on to a small chance of us being together. It's hard to tell her all that because we both know that we love each other. I asked her to break up with him and she said no, she was in love with him. I asked her if she loved him more than me and she said it was a different kind of love. I told her that if she wants what he can't give her, she should come back to me. She got so hurt and told me that I was being selfish. She said we still have a connection and the reason we keep talking to each other is because we still love each other. If I really did care about her, then I wouldn't hurt her and be out of her life. I should try and win her back. She also says I'm being so dramatic and says that I shouldn't listen to anyone else but my heart because no one else (this forum) knows how I feel about her. She can't even talk to me when I'm with a relationship with someone else. That small period of time where I was, she was so hurt and couldn't even talk to me. Another thing that really made me mad and call her a * * * * * is when she keeps asking me to things her BF won't do. She recently uploaded some pictures to her blog and she was asking me to look at them and comment them. She knows that I love her pictures and that I think that they are all cute and wonderful and so artistic, and I told her she knows what I think. She kept telling me to tell her though, she wanted to hear it from me. I eventually did tell her and she got so happy and told me that NO ONE else does that for her. I know that if we were going out, I wouldn't want her to talk to her ex for things I can't give her. It made me so mad. You know... I know that I have to get her out of my life and that if I kept her around I can't stop feeling hurt. I've tried doing that before and it worked for the period of time that I was in a relationship. After the relationship ended, she started to talk to me online again. I also made a blog a while ago talking about how glad I was to be hanging out with my old friends again and how I can't wait to sleep over their house. Apparently she thought that I was going out with someone else and told me that doesn't want to talk to me anymore because she gets hurt when I'm with someone else and doesn't want to know that I'm sleeping over at "her" house. Ugh... anyway. I told her that she can call me whenever she has problems or wants to talk about something. She usually doesn't call me so we might not talk for a long time and I'm fine with that. I need to move on with my life and I need to find someone else.

I'm sure that I want to be with her. The problem is convincing her that she should be with me

I've been going out for my ex for nearly 2 years, since we were 17/18. We've been in love with each other and we did everything together. We were nearly each other's first everything. First love, both virgins, first to be in each other's new car after we got our licenses. There was also trouble in our relationship. In the first two months, I cheated on her with my ex and for a while after that I lied to her about stupid things that she got really mad about. It was all fine near the end of our relatoinship and we pretty much forgot about those incidents. We decided that we wanted to spend our lives together and I promised that I would propose to her. However, I've been doing some thinking. I thought about what if there was someone out there that was better for both of us. What if this isn't as good as it gets. I have no way of knowing if we were really meant for each other because we never tried anything else. I decided to break up with her for this reason (and she wasn't too happy about it, but she accepted it) sometime in September. Since then, I've only gone out with one person for twenty days. It didn't quite work out. In fact, everyone I seem to meet seems so uninteresting to me. Since then, She's been going out with some guy she's known since elementary school and they are in love with each other. We decided to keep no contact with each other for a while, but i guess both of us have been breaking that. I talked to her two nights ago for about 5 hours. For a while, she kept going on about her new boyfriend. The things they've done, the things he's good at, his friends, and some of the bad qualities she wants to change about him. After that, I told her about my "luck" in finding someone new. It didn't seem like anything bad. After that, we started reminiscing about our relationship. All the fun we had, and all the pleasure we shared with each other. And then one thing led to another... and I told her that I miss her and still love her. It took her a while to say it, but she felt the same way about me. I asked her what she was thinking, and she said that she was really confused. I know I can treat her so much better than that other guy, I know I can give her what she deserves. I tried telling her that I can be the most amazing thing in her life and she still feels so confused. You know, there's so many little things about this guy that seems to bug her. This new guy isn't sentimental, and he doesn't spend hours on the phone with her at night. In fact, their conversations on the phone dont seem to last more than a minute. He doesn't wear his emotions on his sleeve and doesn't show when he's happy. He does get her gifts for her birthday, but it's more expensive gifts then gifts that have any thought in them. He's been making her feel guilty for spending his money on her because he was going to buy a car before the new year and now he cant, and she doesn't even ask him to spend any money on her. He's also not as gentlemanly as he could be. I asked her if she talked to him about these problems and she said that when she tried he was reallly sensetive about it and started acting like a baby. Also, every now and then she would say how wonderful I am. I told her something about how she deserved to be treated better, she told me how caring and wonderful and great I was. You know... in a way... I kind of want her to break up with this new guy and at the same time I want her to know that I care about her and want her new relationship to work. I know that the right thing to do is to tell her that they should talk about it and if he loved you he would accept it, but I can't feel happy doing it. I want her back in my life and I want to tell her that you should just break up with him because I can give you everything he can't, but I can't seem to do that either. I'm so in love with her and I really regret breaking up with her in the first place. It makes me so sick when I picture both of them together, especially in bed. I have tried REALLY HARD getting my mind off of her but I can't. I think about her every morning and I think about her right before I sleep. I asked her if I should move on and forget about her and forget about our love. She said No and Yes. I asked her what I should do, and she said that she still feels this special link that we have for each other. She doesn't want to end our friendship because she doesn't want to lose that. I told her that both of us still have chemistry for each other and when I said that she said It's a sign. It sort of is a sign isn't it? If we haven't been talking to each other since September and we still both have chemistry, isn't that a sign? While she was half asleep and seemingly sleep talking, I asked her to come back to me and break up with him. The first time that I asked her, she said that she loved him and wouldn't do that to him. The second time I asked her, she said okay. I'm not quite sure if she remembers that since we haven't talked since, but it gives me hope. Hehe, I was talking to his ex (who actually happens to be one of my close friends, a very big coincidence), and he said that he was a terrible guy while they were going out. He said that in the first two months, he was alright, but after that he gets so boring so fast. He's such a baby, and whenever she slapped him he would cry. While he was driving her home one night, she said that she wanted to break up. After she said that, he let go of the wheel and said that if they broke up they would both crash and die. There were many more problems with him too but this wasn't necessary anyway It might be that relationships bring out the worst in people, but it made me happy to know that he isn't that great of a guy I want to win her back. The situation right now is very delicate and I want to take extreme care in how I approach it. I know there's a chance that we could get back with each other, so don't tell me that there isn't. It might not happen now, but as long as it helps us get back together again in the near future, I'll be happy. What can I do and what should I do? I need some help here. I've been feeling terrible all day yesterday and want to talk to her again but I'm not sure when I should call. Anyway, if no one does reply I'm glad I told that to someone.