I recently lost my mother. She died suddenly and it has been very hard for the surviving members of my family to cope but I feel as though I have been doing fairly well. Kubler-Ross says that there are five stages of dying and it has been suggested that the same stages exist for those of us who are grieving the lost of a loved one. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. Until now, I have been firmly entrenched in Stage 1. Even though I know she is dead, I can't wrap my mind around the fact that I'll never see her (at least in this life) again.
Here is my problem - I have begun to experience a new range of emotions. I don't know if I'm moving into stage 2 or if I'm simply losing my mind. I'm irrationally jealous of people who still have two living parents - even my husband! He was there with me every step of losing my brother three years ago and he has been with me every step while I'm coping with the loss of my mother. I don't know why I am feeling this way but I sometimes feel this compulsive need to screech at him about how he can not possibly know what I'm feeling and that he needs to leave me the hell alone - but all he's trying to do is help. I also find myself shying away from people who have always been close friends and gravitating towards people who, like me, have lost a parent at a youngish age.
Is this normal or do I need to address this?