Sagaimzy

The other day I got in a fight with my mom, and i wanted to run away, but then i realized i have no where to run away to. No friends that i feel THAT comfortable with that i can run to their house. In my town i have a lot of friends, but no true friends. And it bothers me a lot because, i am always thre for everybody, i tink i am an honest person, and i dont deserve to be treated like garbage. I am still scarred form being torn apart in middle school. when i was yojnger all of my friends ganged up on me and made me go into a deep dark depression, i changed as a person, i am still not fully recovered. but still i manage to hang out with the friends who wonce made my life a living hell. I chose to associate myself with these people. they have changed of course, but whenever they ren't nice, or ignore me i get thse horrible flashbacks, which make me mad, and angry, then i act weird around htem. I just dont know what to do..i have many other friends but i dont know where i belong. I need somehwere to belong, i want true friends, I want at least someone that i can turn to whenever i need it with any problem..and i dont have that anymore, I am lost.. before i used to be able to talk to my mom whenever i had a problem, however for a few months now she has changed inot a totally differenct person..i dont want to get into detaals, but i just dont like what she has become.. I need advice, i dont know what i should do, because the firends i have are good to me at times, but they minipulate me into thinking that they are great and super, when they are far from that all o them are just worried about themselves, I always listen to any problem they ever have, but they never have the time to listen to me and how I feel about things...it makes me sick,

There is a solution to every problem, life is so beautiful, why would you want to take that away? If you did anything like that, everyone that you knew would be crushed, destroyed..would you want to put all that on somebody's shoulders? I bet your a great kid, whose just going through a rough time. We all go through rough times, its a part of life, and usually they make us stronger. There were many times where I felt that there was no point to life, but then I realized that there is. We all have our whole lives ahead of us! I think that you have made it to the first step. You know that you have a problem, and you want to fix it. That is really good, the next step is getting help.

I think that you should respect what she says, if she truly thinks that you guys are meant to be friends then so be it. there is someone out there for you who won't make you this upset, and who will love you as much as you love them. Don't push something that isn' there