Well i've known this guy since I was around 8 years old and he was 13. His dad and my mom met and hit it off. Anyways, as the years went on and I seen him more and more I guess the hormones kicked in and I started to like him. He just got so attractive to me and I developed a huge crush on him to the point where just the thought of me seeing him would make my heart beat faster and faster.
NOW, I like him even more!! I can't look him in his face , I can't talk to him , I just dont function properly when im around him and its so nervewracking when were together.To me he is the sexiest guy i've ever laid my eyes on!! Hes just simply a m a z i n g to me.
Heres where the problem comes in ,, im obviously not the only girl who thinks so highly about him. Since our age is off by about 5 years he doesn't pay much attention to me in that way,,we have like a little sister-big brother kind of relationship. Well , my obbsession with him has taken me to such limits that i check his page EVERYDAY to see what comments girls leave and i notice theres just this one girl that seems to have a little "thing" going on with him. I know for a fact that they are just friends but she is just so much better then me in every aspect AND they are the same age. He leaves comments on her page, just playful ones but even that gets me soo jealous! Well i had the chance to see her other pictures and she is just gorgeous!
I know I have no chance whatsoever now. I know there is most likely no future whatsoever with him and it sickens me. I dont want to eat, I cant sleep , Im just up .. thinking about him . To top this all off , he likes my sister too. I've known he liked my sister but she does not like him at all in that way so I dont worry about it.
But darn!!! Is this just a NORMAL crush? Me seeing the notes they send each other makes me sick. I dont want to like him anymore...What do I do? Can someone give me any pointers? ANYTHING? PLEASE!!
P.S -- hes legal im not(*,)
* I HOPE I DIDNT CONFUSE U IN ANY WAY ,, IF I DID JUST ASK FOR SOME CLEARAFICTION!!! =] *
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