Id say im still in love but not like i used to be, i care about her a lot, but i think i have lost a some and am going on the comfort and habit thing. I really dont know what id do without her around, most of my weekends are spent with her and her family.
Ive had a lot of girlfriends, a handful of very serious ones... my relationship before this was about a year and a half, and ended badly, It seems in my life experience though, every relationship ive left... i ended up getting with a girl that is even better, and has always made me happier lol... my own experience is kinda my downfall perhaps, maybe im being too greety, and this will turn out to be the best its going to get so i need to just focus on this relationship, i dont know.
in the past 2 years, what i want in a girl has changed quite a bit (going from 17-19 is a age of big change in my opinion) so i feel kind of bad for her, because im basically an adult now, im quit mature and ... well serious in my career goals, and ive begun expecting things from her she just might not be capable of. or doesnt want to do now because she is still young. shes 18, about a year and a half younger than me, but i meant she lives at home, ive been out on my own for 2 years now.
To RayKay
I dont hate the way she breathes lol, but some of the stuff is kind of serious, we try to communicate but often end up fighting about these types of things. one example is her attitude towards life, she is really negative, and often jokes about ending her life (i know she wouldnt but it still bugs me beacuse ive been around people like that) she also doesnt seem to have any ambitions in life, doesnt really want to do anything where as im the complete opposite with all my goals laid out, that also bothers me because im nieve about other ppl maybe and feel she should be able to do the same.
We have some trouble communicating even though it would help, i am some what short tempered on certain issues. and she is very stubburn and difficult in general to talk with.
some people from school used to joke that we arent compatible because we are so much alike, im starting to wonder if that is true , and im starting to wonder if i really am settling just because im settled... i really dont know, i somethings (NOT ALWAYS) get a feeling i could od better, i dont know why but i do think that sometimes
I am also REALLY busy right now with school and interviews and stuff, so im finding it hard to kinda sit down and think hard about what i want to do? and shes been not happy with me (in the way she talks to me) since i brought up this whole situation, and i dont blame her for that, but its not helping.
Thanks for the help guys/girls , i appreciate any more info you guys can put in. Sorry this is so long!