AnimeFanDude

I don't think this is something you should pursue with anyone. I recommend that you see a professional. This could make you vulnerable to all kinds of scams and criminals.

I'm sorry but this is very troubling behavior. I feel, like this is a line in the sand type of situation where you need to tell your gf your not comfortable with this.

So before going to bed I was watching some videos on Youtube one of the videos was by this guy Armored Skeptic. I used to watch his content a lot years ago and kind of fell out of it. I clicked on it out of boredom and suspected what it might be about. I wasn't surprised by the stuff about the evils of Corporate America or Hollywood. I've grown to expect that kind of thing on YouTube what got me was when he started talking about the late Jason David Frank. The actor for Tommy on Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. As a kid I loved that show and when I heard JDF died and more specifically how he died. Well it hit me hard I remember Kevin Conroy passing around the same time strangely it didn't hit me as hard I think that's because KC died of natural causes well compared to JDF at least. Honestly, it's more that I cannot fathom how JDF could end it like he did. Yes he was going through a tough time, but all we go through hard times at one point or another. I kept coming across videos and still do of fans talking about what it was like to meet him. Some would talk about how he was Tommy or the embodiment of what they perceived Tommy to be. I think the most important thing we can do is not forget that everyone is human and is not invincible we never no what another person is going through. Still even now after all these months when I think about his passing it really gets to me and I never even met the guy. I feel like I'm a little bit foolish feeling so strongly about a stranger, but I guess it's more to do with how big of an impact Power Rangers had on me as a kid.

Thank you for replying I do enjoy reading so perhaps I should expand my interests.

I've been feeling a bit of anxiety lately. I don't know how to really describe it maybe it's my depression (I was diagnossed a few years ago) I'm trying to be a better person. I just feel like I have these negative emotions bottled up inside me and I have to let them out. It's like overwhelming pain and anger combined with OCD. I can't help how I feel and no matter what I do I always feel trapped. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs more often then not. It's like a bottomless void of pain and with darkness seeping out has replaced my heart.

You need to end this and fast. This does not sound like a good situation at all.