FindYourSelfFirst

Further on down the road Somebodys going2 hurt ya Like you hurt me too U just wait and see................

Is it love or not maybe its her attention Or its addiction

okay- First, this work comes from a writer who has looked at "signs" of many cultures going back many years. What position you place the signs is part 1 of the interpretation. Each Sign has its own interpretation. part 2 Part 3, you put it together 1st position (meaning the sign you draw first and so on) WHERE YOU THINK YOU ARE. 2nd position is YOUR STRENGTHS 3rd position WHERE YOU (REALLY) ARE 4th position YOUR MOTIVATION 5th position OLD, UNFINISHED BUSINESS NOW- THE DEFINTION OF THE SIGNS CIRCLE - WHOLENESS CROSS - RELATIONSHIP SPIRAL- GROWTH AND CHANGE TRIANGLE - GOALS, DREAMS, VISIONS SQUARE - STABILITY SO WHEN YOU PUT YOURS TOGETHER- THIS IS WHAT IT SAYS WHERE YOU THINK YOU ARE. - RELATIONSHIP (NEED FOR CONNECTION FEAR OF ABONDONMENT, LOSS, AND ISOLATION) YOUR STRENGTHS - GROWTH & CHANGE (NEED FOR VARIETY CHANGE COMING TO THE SAME POINT, OVER AND OVER, BUT AT A DIFFERENT LEVEL, IN A NEW LIGHT. DREAD ROUTINE) WHERE YOU (REALLY) ARE - GOALS, DREAMS, VISIONS (SELF DISCOVERY, FOCUSED ON IDENTYFYING AND PURSUING A GOAL FEAR THAT THERE WILL BE NO DREAMS TO PURSUE) YOUR MOTIVATION - WHOLENESS (ASPIRE FOR INDEPENDENCE AND INDIVIDUALIZATION. NEED SPACE AND ROOM TO FIND THEMSELVES AND DEVLOP THEIR OWN IDENTITY FEAR- ENTRAPMENT...BEING CAUGHT IN A SITUATION THAT WILL RESTRAIN OR RESTRICT THEM. OLD, UNFINISHED BUSINESS - STABILITY (CONSTRUCTING A FOUNDATION READY TO BUILD, TO IMPLEMENT A PLAN, STRONG NEED FOR CONSISTENCY, ACCOUNTABILITY, AND COMPLETION.... FEAR THAT NOTHING WILL BE ACCOMPLISHED WASTED THEIR TIME....THEY WANT RESULTS. EACH OF THE SIGNS HAS THE MEANING...THE POSITIVES, AND THE FEARS. IF THIS PEAKS YOUR INTEREST YOU SHOULD GO TO YOUR BOOK STORE AND READ THIS AUTHOR. THIS IS JUST A BIT OF HER WORK...DONT READ INTO TOO MUCH UNLESS YOU GET THE BOOK AND GET ALL THE DETAILS....SO YOU DONT MISUNDERSTAND MY SHORT ASSESMENT. SHE IS AN ANTHROPOLOGIST, WHO HAS TRAVELED THE WORLD, WHO HAS STUDIED AND WRITTEN ABOUT PEOPLE OF ALL CULTURES....(YOU LIKE WRITING -RIGHT?) LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK. THE AUTHOR OF THE BOOK: Signs of Life by Angeles Arrien, Ph.D. Pick one of the five basic signs of life (the circle, the triangle, the cross, the square, or the spiral) and author Angeles Arrien will tell you exactly where you are in your life's journey. A fascinating look at how our soul chooses the symbols that mirror profound lessons in our life.

Im sorry to hear that you feel so bad and no one understands. That must be very frustrating. My guess is there are people that care for you and love you...but struggle to understand you....It doesnt seem to me that that should be their fault (I'm not saying you blame anyone either). Understanding ourselves first, in my opinion is the hardest thing to do, and maybe should come first. The tough part for people I think, is to really discover whats underneath all the pain and suffering. It's usually a lot deeper than most people want to go. I was abused when I was young and it wasnt until I was much much older that I understood where my anger, rage and especially shame impacted my behavior - good and bad....Good in that I always worked hard to prove to everyone I was okay....which got me far in my work....Bad, in that having to prove to the world your okay, every day for 30 or more years,,,,is kinda draining , exhausting....and keeps me from really knowing and enjoying the "real" me. And for years I blamed it on my parents, bad relationships, my siblings, pretyy much everything...until I got to the core of what was bothering me. It seems like you do have some strengths...if you've been fighting this for 2 or 3 years....in some ways thats a positive....your strong, a fighter, a survivor....and there are lots of ways to battle depression these days...not just medicine....millions of people have it....so your not alone. You like to write, right? There's a good place to start. There's some good books out there that can help you develop those talents...Let me know if you need a reccomendation. My daughter is journalling, to learn about herself, and maybe devlop a talent for writing.... Im reading a book on shapes and signs and will tell you what it means if you do this exercise. There are 5 signs Circle Spiral Triangle Square Cross + Draw each one of these shapes with the first being your most "preferred" and the last meaning your least preferred.... Ill analyze it with my book......I think youll like what it says...trust me.

Although you may see your poem as being expressive, and using the forum to share your feelings....some may see it differently. Lets say I'm a parent and worried about my 15 yr old daughter who is depressed over the break up with her boyfriend. I'm scared and worried about her, even though she may be oblivious to my concerns. I really really want to be able to do something to minimize her pain, or show that I understand her heartache and grief. So, I as a parent, who is scared to death, try to find anyway posssible to learn how my child is feeling and coping with this loss. And, I do the thing that is most likely to put distance between us, I check out the sites I know she posts on in a desperate attempt to understand. And although I know I'm impacting the trust that mother and daughter need to have, I feel like I've run out options ( How ironic, eh? a person "feeling" like they've run out of options...in life).... So as I'm browsing thru the various websites, in an attempt to learn, to understand, and hopefully be able to do something to ease the pain of my daughter....I come accross another young person who seems to be going thru the same pain. Except this person has a "gift" of being able to express themselves. And the writer shows us the dark side of themselves.....(that many of us have or will face in life).....And then, it dawns upon me, that my daughter may be at this point in life...that tonights the night, no lie.... So I see an unusual name in the post and search the internet for a phone number....Maybe I can help someone. Maybe this young person is crying out for help....I dont know....but I do know if I dont do anything....I wouldnt be human.... Please forgive me....

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you. Jesus

The sad truth is that our real life consists of a complexity of opposites --- day and night, birth and death, happiness and misery, good and evil. We are not even sure that one can prevail against the other, that good will overcome evil, or joy defeat pain. LIFE IS A BATTLEGROUND! It always has been, and always will be; and if it were not so, exsistence would come to an end. Fight the Good Fight.....You will learn...you will grow.....you will see... the real me, the real me, the real me.........you. Don't run....cause you'll always come back to it. Face the demons, get to know them better.....Gives you the control....over your destiny.

From a book I'm reading on the hidden power that lies within our darkside.....and being able to meet our darkside. The "power" is not something cynical but maybe the power to achieve a more geniune and comeplete self acceptance, releasing guilt and shame, and reclaiming the disowned parts of ourselves... Although we think of the shadow as containing only Darkness, as Jung stated, its essense is "pure gold" THE RANGE OF WHAT WE THINK AND DO IS LIMITED BY WHAT WE FAIL TO NOTICE. AND BECASUE WE FAIL TO NOTICE THAT WE FAIL TO NOTICE THERE IS LITTLE WE CAN DO TO CHANGE UNTIL WE NOTICE HOW FAILING TO NOTICE SHAPES OUR THOUGHTS AND DEEDS (From the late psychiatrist R. D. Laing)