tryingtoletgo

I just went trou exactly the same as you the only I was in it for 4 years, sometimes I feel that women dont appreciate a nice guy they rather with some one thath treats them like crap, or may be they allready have some one on the side to replace us

Hi I just recently broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years, when the relationship started we use to work for the same company in different locations, I been divorced for 2 years and I'm a father of 2 wonderful boys, she has three kids of which two lived in the house, after dating for only a few months we move in together(big mistake), anyways she got along with my kids great and I got along with her kids great, until later on when the my younger son started being jealous of me and her and started to act up, as a father that loves his children my reaction was to protect them, and getting upset of her I also turn very critical of her children, I was tired because I had to drive about 40 miles each way to get my kids I have them everyother weekend and also on my days off, after that got old and started being stress out all the time and started taking it out on my ex, and by the way she lost her job and I took over the house payments, any ways after I moved out she started working 18 hours a days to support herself and her two kids, one which was over 18 years of age, but did not help her, and her daughter was going to a private school, after I moved out to be closer to my kids and not have to drive such a long distance, well anyways after 3 months of being I realized that this woman was the person I want it to spend that rest of my life with, but she really wanted nothing to do with me after a lot begging by me we started going out again, and I ended up moving back to her place but this time I still kept my apartment my apartment, she said i was better that way I told her I wanted to get marry with her but she said no, since she still has not got divorced to the father of her kids, even thought he left about 16 years and never once call them or supported them, she still uses his last name and gets real defensive when I asked why she would divorce him she said she did not want to pay $400.00 to do it I offer to pay it for her but she still refused. the last couple she has gotten real defensive when I call from work to see how she is doing she says that I want to control her last time she went to a reunion to where her old friend from her previous job where, she did not tell me until an hour before going, she was there until 4 o clock in the morning it was her 2 girl friends on the girls husband and 3 other married guys without their wives I got upset because she did not tell me who was going to be there and because she did not even bother to invited me, no she ask me to leave her alone for while, I told her ok, but I wanted to know for how long she got upset and told me she does not know how long and when she was ready she would call me, I did not call her for a week and then got drunk and went to her house without telling her, I got into the house using the back door which was open, i though i was my house too since I put so much effort and money into it but I guess she did not think so, when I got there she was upset because I was there her daughter and son where in their rooms, she screamed for her daughter to come and to tell her son to keep that door on his room open, I could not believe that she would think that I would harm her phisically, since I have never done it before, any ways after she screamed at me she finally told me that she did not want me anymore and that she had done everything to show that she did not love me, I left and the next I call her cell and left her a message telling her that I want it to end everything that I could not take the insertity any more I felt like she was being selfish and only care about her feelings, is being a week since then but I still find my self hoping that we could be together even though I know we can not, I'm trying to keep my self bussy and trying to be a better father to my kids I have no one that I trust to talk to about this some one please help