its quite strange bec`ause i went through the samething with the man I love today ...to this very day
I truly believe you should grab ahold of yourself realize that you got one shot of this life.
If he is worth it in your heart mind soul than send him a letter or an email express to him the truth. Your truth because in the end thats all that matters.
I went through something quite similiar for a year i did not see the one guy i actually couldnt get out of my head. Finally called him when i got back from a trip "accross the world" ...and now it will be 4 years soon that we have been in love...
You have nothing to loose by trying hun
good luck!!! I know how it feels you just feel so alone eventhough you are having the time of your life and are independent....sometimes its good to not be cold and let yourself go ....