Hi all.
this is my 1st post here.
I'm 24 and male.
I have a girlfriend (22) & we've been together for 3 years & it was great.In these yaers she was really nice & honest with with me , she didnt date anyone else & we were 1st close friends & then lovers.She was my 1st serious love so i thought that i should gain more experience , thereforeeee i told her that i will date ppl but i will tell her if i'm going to really stay with one.i didnt do that but i kept her in a situation of uncertainity for this last year. I dated 2 times & it was almost nothing - I didnt like the ppl i met , i have never looked at anyone else , i did this dating thing just to convince myself that ive met enough ppl , i really felt no attraction towards them & thought theres something wrong with me .But now she says that she is spiritually tired of this situation & wants me to go & have my experience & then come back if i want but stay more firmly in our relationship. I dont know but maybe she has found someone else.I know i was a jerk to do that to her but she never told me seriously that she was upset about this , i mean i convinced her everytime we talked.Now I'm really stuck.I am a shy person so i can't START relationships very quick & plus i CANT LIE so it will take some time for me & i fear she may get away until that.But on the otherside i think what she says is almost something about marriage & plus maybe i should meet more ppl.She's really smart,beautifulll,nice charming & very much like me ( soulmate thing ) but She's a virgin & she has this philosophy that she will have FULL sex only with her husband , so that she has something for him.I live in a middle-east country where virginity is an important issue for many.
She says that she's not breaking up & she still loves me but she wants me to not waste my youth & go out & gain experience so that i will really know her value & when i come back , for as long as we will stay friends , i stay firmly in our relationship.plus maybe she should start looking for her husband.for me marriage is not a choice , i can't marry anyone in this age.in all these years i think i was the ignorant & less caring about our relationship ( not about her ).
I'm really stuck & have lost my concentration almost for 3 days , i can't eat & A i can't pursue my MSc studies correctly.I know i sound really incompetent but thats what it is .It's 24 hours since we last talked , before that i tried to stick to no contact for 3 days but couldnt do that for longer than 12 hours.should i stick to no contact ? wouldnt it mean a breakup instead of a break ?