Hi Alexis,
This sucks so bad. I miss you so much EVERY day. I never imagined that I would ever have to leave somebody I love. I just wish it could be like it was before.
Today was the best father's day ever....the kids were great! Chloe and I danced in Starbucks at her request, and Cade said "It's easy to be a kid with a Dad like you." I cried a little bit... I'm crying again now because you weren't here to share it with us.
If you had just admitted that you made a mistake with that guy - hell, if you had never made that mistake....what if, what if, what if. Coulda, shoulda, woulda....
I want nothing more than to just take you back and pretend like nothing happened, and that's what I would do if I called you right now. It was my intent to do that against my better judgment until you ignored my text messages this morning. I can't delude myself about the relationship any longer when it becomes more and more apparent that you wouldn't come back even if I would have you.
I will always love you and wish the best for you even though I cannot be with you.
-Zack