Why didn't i stick to this all those months ago....?!
Yes, I miss hearing from you - but the routine we got in was poisonous, and ultimately had to end sometime - and I'm glad its me that cut the cord finally. I know you don't like it, I know you want me around, but I deserve better. You hated that I was your "puppy", jumping at your beck and call, but you were happy for this when you knew there was no romantic commitment. All your efforts else where failed, and i was the first point of call when others dumped you. As much as i still care for you - I care for myself more. My life for the past year has been on hold while I stared blinkered as you fed me crumbs. I didn't even want a relationship with you, but enjoyed your company. So much so that decent girls came and went, and I didn't care.
You've done nothing wrong. I'm not at all angry. But I respect myself enough to walk away now, for good....even if you have no respect for me. You want me in all the ways that I don't want you. You need me...but I don't need you.