Recently I know this girl and we're very much in love with each other. She really loves kissing (i'm her first kiss btw). And the thing is when we kiss, I don't feel anything at all. It just feels plain boring to me. But I still do. Initially the thought of connecting lips were intimate/sexy but after all it got boring. She never withdraws while kissing. And the kissing goes forever until I have to stop it (sometimes after 10 min non stop!). I don't mind if I was feeling as good, but no absolutely nothing at all.
I don't know if she's bad. But I think the problem lies with me. She claims I'm good (but she has no one to compare to). Everytime we lie in bed, it will be kissing. She likes it really a lot a lot a lot. I can't refuse, or say I don't want to, that would be rude. Because it will be an indirect message. And in every of the very very long kissing sessions, I'll be the one that pulls out first. (infact she never pulled out before!), then she looks with me with those eyes. and she asked me before if she was bad. If she was, I'll probably say the truth. but no. Idon't even know if I don't feel anything from kissing.
Date back to my first kiss. I was in love with that girl as well. But the kiss was much much much better. We didn't kiss much but it was sensual and perfect for me. But that was only for a few times and for a matter of 1-2 minutes each time. Each time we parted after having kiss I would have the longing feeling. And now, not that I dislike it, but I kind of have this " when is this going to end " feeling.
Never spoke to her. In middle both girls had a fling which I kissed. And I didn't feel anything either.
So now the question is. Is it me? Can one person be feeling so good and the other person not feeling anything?