I Had Lied...

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On a mid-nite train to nowhere

I left my home of long ago

Destination..sites not set on

Wracking brain tis to or fro

 

Journey begun without an ending

Search high and low for beconing bright

May be to hasty in my decision

Left at first when day was light...

 

Seems to me..I run too quickly

No map nor compass I employ

Left my true love by the wayside

My grown up man who is a boy...

 

Understanding self my true realization

I'm not ready to be so tied...

Were it not with thoughts of preservation

To know my dear one I had lied?

 

Someday when.. I know not yet love

When I am sure my heart is true

I will find my way to happiness

And at the end..Will I find you?

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Here is another one I wrote..

 

~Dream Lover~

 

I held you in my dreams

I didn't even know your name

A picture of some fantasy

To me you slowly came..

 

A unique human specimen

Without a single flaw

Buried deep within my brain

The dream it told me all...

 

I know you must be out there

Waiting for me to find

That picture perfect stranger

Who's trapped inside my mind

 

And when I go to sleep at night

Will you forever come to me?

Embracing me in encompassed love

For all eternity?

 

Someday I just may find you

This stranger I've never seen

Lost in the land of midnight sleep

Of whom I often dream....

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My Son's Secret

 

My son has hidden a secret

For over twenty years

He was afraid to let it be known

'Cause of rejection, pain, and fears

He told me all about it

With tears streaming down his face

It was so hard for him to tell me

He kept saying he was a disgrace

 

He didn't know how to begin

To tell his secret to me

He was afraid that I would reject him

But he had no cause to be

 

I held his head against me

"Please God, heal the hurt I pray"

My son has finally told me

All his life he has known he was gay

 

"My son", I said, "I love you still"

"Did you expect my love to waiver?

This secret you've had for twenty years

Could make me not love you-never!"

 

"A mothers love, it knows no bounds

I will love you till the end of my days

But other people's ignorance

May not understand your ways"

 

"The only advice I can give to you

Is to your own self you must be true

Don't try to be what you're not, my son

Because pretending will never do"

 

"I know your secret was hard to tell

Yes, for me it was quite a surprise

But I love you no matter what, my son

Now go wipe the tears from your eyes"