neonnova Posted October 12, 2005 Share Posted October 12, 2005 I've noticed a pattern of trust issues with boyfriends in my life. I've always given them the benefit of the doubt but once lied to, found it impossible to go on because I didn't want to feel "crazy" all the time. Well, as time has gone on I've realized maybe my trust issues have gotten out of hand... or have they? I seem to be one of those people that NEEDS the proof because I always like to give the person the benefit of the doubt. When I was dating my exboyfriend for the 1st year we were living on different sides of the country. I COMPLETELY trusted him and even told him he could see other girls until we could be together... he declined because that would "defeat the purpose" of being together and I was flattered. Eventually I moved to be with him and we lived together for a year. The year was difficult and soon he grew distant. We rarely had sex (maybe once a month) and I started to wonder if something was amiss. There are no women at his job and we live together so I didn't really think he was sleeping with someone else, but thought maybe he was second guessing the relationship. So then I did what I shouldn't ever do. Yes, I read his email. He had given me the password a while back (but probably forgot). There was nothing earth shattering in there but I noticed he had given some girls his AIM name which I found odd since he NEVER has time to talk to me online during the day. Then later I had found out that he was talking with a girl one evening at a club and he neglected to tell her he had a girlfriend. He told her later (or so he says) but I found this all really uncomfortable. I've noticed a lot of small things like this and couldnt bare for it to eat away at me so I just broke it off. He was angry that I looked into his personal email and i can understand why. I guess I just needed to know if there was something to the feelings I was having about the relationship. If it was true he wasnt interested in me anymore and maybe in someone else. I guess at this point in my life I just don't know how to trust someone when I've been lied to so many times. Link to comment
notmyself24 Posted October 12, 2005 Share Posted October 12, 2005 From your experience(s), I suppose you do have reasons not to trust bfs. Why don't you take things slow, maybe with a man closer to you- physically, mentally, & emotionally. Relationships are tough & beautiful too! However, distance can put a strain on them & some men need more attention (if you know what I mean) than others. Not all guys are jerks like that- i guess snooping is wrong- hey, I did it & thats how I found text messages from another female & her number- although they were harmless words (nothing sexual)= I still confronted him & he denied, denied, to no end- well, he admitted it that night & told me it was b/c my ex was calling me (at the time) & he was confused: whatever. The irony is, he told the girl about me that day (before I found out). he says she doesn't come around his work place anymore & I deleted her # from his phone- he didn't mind...now, he lets me know when he's unhappy: which is never b/c I am a great gf. The point is, it happens. Every situation is different- but, the motivation is the same- men stray b/c 1) They feel neglected (bad exscuse), they need to be desired by other woman for attention, their ego, & validation that they are "still" sexy, attractive to opposite sex. 2) They don't necessarily need sex, just that ego boost & fantasy (i.e. porno, or images of gorgeous woman)- he may have been gratifying himself when you were not around by just talking, picturing them since he was chatting online.3) They are bored. Thinking about moving on- this is the worst case senario b/c they will look for another (better) woman behind your back, so they have a fall back when/if he diecides to dump you (his current woman). In that case, you never need a man like that b/c he is pathetic & is affraid of being alone- sad!!! You may ask how I know this- I ask guys (curent bf too) how they operate in reguards to their women/relationships & why they "stray" & I ask them to give an honest answer even if it hurts...some men are simply misogynists (woman haters), that is a fact- read about it- ok...I am focusing too much on the nagative- But, my point about trust- we have all been violated one tie or another. I realize that men think/do completely different from woman. Accept it- it may help you sleep better at night. Don't give up a good guy b/c of jerks in the past. I was giving you worst case senarios so you understand that these things happen- I guess in this day & age we have to be fearless or be alone- I hope I make some sense to you. If not, ask about anyhting you don't understand...take care Link to comment
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