Mental Health & Breakups

[kendallgetz]

Hello all! This was my second serious relationship & I'm 21. My first relationship was three years and this last one was a year and a half. This second breakup has me DEVASTATED. For some background info, I was diagnosed with separation anxiety when I was 10 years old & recently have been struggling with anxiety and depression as well as a recent diagnosis of an autoimmune disease. I'm a senior in college and the past four years have been hell, I've been through a lot physically & emotionally.

 

So my most recent boyfriend and I met in college and dated for a year and a half (he broke up with me the day before that anniversary, ugh). I LOVED him, I loved him to the point I realized I never truly loved my first boyfriend (who had a drug problem & was very emotionally abusive). This guy really gave me hope for a better relationship & I was his first serious relationship, we were very close, he was honestly my best friend since I lost a lot of friends in college.

 

A few weeks before my ex and I broke up, I went off of my antidepressants because I am working on switching pills... let me just say that going off of Lexapro is so difficult and I had really bad side effects even with tapering off. I am planning to go back on Prozac but in the moment, I am not taking any antidepressants.

 

The past few months, I have noticed my ex pulling away from me and one day he told me he no longer loved me in the way that I loved him and it destroyed it. It's been a little over a month and I feel like I am crazy, I have such a hard time going to work and not having a mental breakdown. It's winter break so thankfully I don't have to deal with school but my anxiety and depression seems to be out of control. I am going to a therapist every week so that helps but I am still struggling, I feel this pain in my heart from him leaving me and it seems unbearable and impossible to deal with. I have had some very good days but today is not one of them.

 

I'm not even sure what I'm asking for by posting this, I guess just some encouragement. I know it will get better in time, I've been through this before but he was the love of my life and I feel so broken. I am really struggling with my mental health but I feel so out of control and it is hard to get through the day to day pain.

 

P.S. We talked once in person after the breakup but other than that I have had no contact with him and deleted him on all social media.

[Maddyb12]

I know how you feel. I'm currently really struggling through a break up as well. I know time heals all and I need to take my own advice but I just keep trying to take things day by day. When it's hard to imagine it day by day I do hour by hour. I've had much worse break ups also but this one is really getting to me. Just try to take it day by day and focus on yourself

[DanZee]

You have to get back onto your meds. That's causing a lot of what you're going through.