What happens NOW??

[desperatlyconfused17]

I met Fred awhile back… during the summer of 2004!! I was in between a broken heart and a new life . I just wanted somebody to love me. I began dating him with the hopes of falling in love and being happy but little did I know what I was getting my self into… I can’t lie, I fell in love, but I think I fell in love with his friendship more than his love.

This is how it happened… I began to date him… not knowing him or what was going to happen! We broke up because my cousin told me that he was cheating on me. My cousin and me got into a fight and I began to talk to Fred as a friend… we got so close. We talked everyday on the phone and the Internet. We talked about everything and anything. He became my best friend. We hadn’t seen each other for a long time… about 6 months… yet we stayed close… even dated twice (each time not working out). But we remained friends no matter what! Well one day, we decided to hang out as friends. It was so great… we went to his grandmas and hung out for awhile, then we went to his moms… on the way there he had his arm around me and we were holding hands… I felt safe and comfortable and I felt like I was exactly where I belonged. At his mom’s… at first we sat on the couch and I leaned on him while he had his arm around me. His mom ask if I was his girlfriend and he said “I don’t know, you have to ask her”, which to me was so sweet that he didn’t say no and he left it up to me. Well we laid on the couch together… me in front and his arm around me…while we watched The Run Down… after the movie his mom took me home and on the way to my house we ended up dating again… I was so happy because I really loved him (and still do)…

The next Tuesday him and his friends came and picked me up and I hung out with him and them for awhile… at his friends house I was going to sit beside him and he pulled me on his lap… which was cool, because I was comfortable sitting on his lap. His friend Brian dropped us off at his grandma’s and me and Fred hung out there for awhile… his grand pap took me home later that night and we had our first REAL kiss on the way to my house!! I was falling deeper and deeper than ever before…

After that he disappeared, I didn’t talk to him or see him for a while… actually I haven’t seen him since and that was a while a go. Now, we are talking again, as friends, and I ask him to go back out with me because I he told me that he is afraid of relationships and stuff and that is why he disappeared and he told me that if he decides to go back out with me that he will make sure that we talk everyday and that we see each other at least twice a week!! I want so bad to trust him because I believe I love him and everything but I don’t know if I can trust him or not!! Plus there is this other guy that I have a crush on and my friend told me yesterday that he wants to go out with me, but I don’t know what to do!! I want to give this new guy a chance, because I like him, but I also want to give Fred another chance (if he’ll give me one), because I love him!! I’m so confused and hurt and scared… I just don’t know what to do!! People tell me to follow my heart but I’m not even sure what it wants anymore!! It’s just as confused as my head… my heart just wants to be loved!! And I just want to be loved and needed!!

[DN]

If you have a crush on this new guy then your love for Fred cannot be that strong. You should spend some time with a little self analysis. Read your own post for clues - you say you love his friendship more than love, for instance. Then decide what you want. Just make sure that you are not careless with other people's feelings.

[boredguy]

i would have to agree with DN, you really need to stop and think about what YOU want. and please be careful how u throw the word 'love' around. it can mean many things. you could love him as just a friend. you really need to make that distinction. also, since this 'other guy' popped in, its really hard to believe that the word 'love' applies to fred.

btw, im sorry if im a lil blunt. sometimes u need to be.

[Prosper]

Hi,

 

I think Fred is a better choice than the new guy. Because through the post you had typed, it gives me a feeling you just love Fred more than the new guy.

 

Clue is because, when you are in love, you just love to call the other party name so much.