gaylord2wife Posted November 30, 2004 Share Posted November 30, 2004 I found out my husband was having an affair in Sept 04 and I moved out in Nov 04. I don't have any children and he has two in the home. We were married for 2 years. I found out on Sept 11th. A bomb drop on me as well. I moved out Nov 11th and our anniversary was Nov 17th. Sometimes it seems so hard to understand. He won't talk about it. With him not talking, I feel lost. I have feelings of hurting him and her. I understand how women can contemplate suicide, drinking or murder. I had to hide the alcohol in my house. I get this rage in my stomach and find myself thinking of awful things to do to them. I'm talking to a counselor to help. My husband started saying, YOU LEFT ME!! What should I have done? I'm home taking care of his kids and he's playing house with another woman. He would have been happy, if I left, because of the kids. By the way, that situation wasn't so hot. I decided I'm not going to take care of his ungrateful children and he cheats. Since separating I can't let him go. He knows it too. I allow him to visit. I want so much to tell him not to contact me or come by. Whenever I'm close, I talk myself out of it. I'm 40. Once turning 40 this year, I was so happy. I wanted things to change in my life. I have never felt such pain in my life. PLEASE HELP!! Quote Link to comment
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