Well Im back

[Kalash]

After talking to a very kind person called Scout who I owe everythhing to helped me realise how ill I was and after talking to Scout I rang up the hospital and told them the situation and they got an ambulance to me which i can say didn`t take long at all to get to me, and now after a break in hospital i feel alot better, and I will say again it`s all thanks to scout

[tea]

how were you sick? may I ask?

 

I'm glad you're okay now.

[PAdreamer]

I am glad that you are doing better hun! Try to stay that way! And remember if things start to go down hill again it's okay to get help!

[Kalash]

Well I found out that my son was killed in a traffic accident whom i have not seen since he was a baby and if he was still alive he would be 16yrs old, well thats how it started, but I was looking for things on the net to kill myself and yes I found out quite a few things errm sleeping with knives, overdoseing, not sleepping at all, basically all I wanted to do was die, and everyone around me knew that but all they could do was just watch me go deeper into a deep dark hole with no escape. lets say this I was so close one time of killing myself but if it wasn`t for someone walking in on me (I left the door unlocked) I even went through the clensing process , which basically is a good bath,a shower, so I would be clean ready to be picked up by the angels and taken to a better place, so yea you could say I was very ill.

[avman]

Kalash, its good to hear from you! I'm glad you got some help and are starting to feel better.

 

Welcome back!

[Scout]

Kalash, many thanks for your incredibly kind words. Remember, YOU made the call to the hospital, and have made incredible strides on your own since. I'm so proud of you!

 

I hope you will continue to post on eNotalone, because you've certainly "been through the fire" and can be of great help to others who are so distraught, that suicide seems like the only option. Your experience and perception could save a life.

 

Welcome back!

 

- Scout

[boomer1619]

Kalash, I am very thankful that you are alive and well. You hang in there and you keep us updated. Things will still be tough, but time will take its course, and life will be surrounded with joy and pleasure! HANG IN THERE

[SteveNaive]

Hello Kalash!

 

It is good to see that you are back and that you are doing better. I think you can be proud of yourself for the hard work that you have done. I think your story can be an inspiration for others as well. Glad you are back!