Just a lttle vent

[stevef20]

Hi all,

 

Im stopping by for the first time in months to vent a little.

 

My ex and i split just before christmas and its fair to say i went through hell, a couple of months ago things started to improve and i thought at last the end is near, to a degree it was and is, ive got on and done things, started doing things i always wanted to do and even went out drinking and socialising again.

 

Last couple of weeks though have not been so good, ive sobbed a few times for the first time in months and find myself hurting again, i miss her again, what we had and what we were, i think its because she is pregant and has told me thats its not mine that has kicked this off, i actually dont believe her and so am having to play a terrible waiting game, i wish it would end.

 

I thought this was over but its not, i guess its back to the drawing board for now.

 

Be well everyone

 

Steve

[banal]

Yeah, there are many ups and downs to this whole process. Some days I think I couldn't care less if she fell of a bridge; other days, hearing a trigger word gets me all sniffly.

 

I like your sig.

[charity]

steve you loved her. you are ..what 7 months post break up? you are doing great. its a process. you cannot expect to be 'over' someone that you truly invested in and loved. you are now having a life again and having fun again. then you will hit a bad patch(now). then it will be better again. and so on for awhile. i think you are doing great!!

[stevef20]

Thanks banal, in the nicest way possible its kinda nice to hear I'm normal and not suffering this alone. I'm glad you like the Sig

[stevef20]

Charity, thank you,

 

I really needed to hear your words, I'm very sad and was sat here thinking and wondering what is wrong with me but you're right, I did love her and invest 100% of me into her and our relationship. I'll bide my time and take this few weeks as a reminder that I'm not over her just yet. Thanks again, I'm very grateful