getting seriously depressed b/c of him [spoiler]

[sleepy]

so my ex "never really official" boyfriend has decided he does not want to have any more communication with me. I have tried to change his mind via one letter and one e-mail, but when I ran into him he told me to go away. We were getting along splendidly and were sort of in love before, but he now has someone new.

 

I will run into him on campus, there is no avoiding that.

I don't know what I did that he wants no more contact with me, as before when we talked about splitting it was always him who wanted to stay friends.

 

I have been struggeling with severe depressions and other mental issues for years, but thought I had conquered most of those demons, but now they are back with a force. I have entered one of the darkest periods of my life. I am so depressed, I am constantly crying. My academic work is suffering. I am getting suicidal. I truly don't know how to go on anymore.

 

I need this guy to talk to me and at least explain! But how can I get him to do that without coming accross like a stalker? I can't really force him to have a conversation with me when he truly does not want to talk to me.

 

So what can I do? I am in therapy, and it is completely useless. For a variety of reasons I can't change therapists. My medications used to work, but they don't anymore.

 

I am at the end of my rope here. I am so sick of crying and feelling such intense pain over someone who clearly does not deserve it.

 

How long will this last? Should I confront him? If so, how? Help, someone, please!

[ezila]

A few years ago, those words could have come from me.

 

First of all - ixnay on the suicial oughtsthay. He won't care, and you'll come off looking like a psychopath.

 

I tell you this because I tried it. The man who broke my heart wasn't the whole reason - he was more just the last straw to a life that I was already unhappy with. So I tried it, unsuccessfully, and landed in a hospital for a few weeks - where he came to see me ONCE, and then never had any respect for me again.

 

To this day, five years later, I am still horribly embarrassed (not to mention, still paying the hospital bill because my insurance didn't cover "Self-Infllicted Injuries"!) when I think about it - and I know that I will never have a friendship with this man because of my awful, terrible, insane actions.

 

Just put him out of your mind - don't demand explanations, you probably won't get them, and you're right; he WILL accuse you of being a stalker.

 

My story has a happy ending: I'm married to a wonderful man, and I have a wonderful life now.

 

You will too! You just have to forget the jerk.

 

I PROMISE you, the pain WILL go away - it just takes time. Hang in there.

[needtobealone]

The best thing you can do hun is just stick to your school work. You say seeing him is unavoidable, that is tuff. But maybe you can hang out with friends, or join a gym or something to get him off of your mind. Good luck