Moving on ... whether I want to or not

[minigirl]

Its nearing 2 months since our breakup...

Its clear he needs alot more time

But I've decided to Let it be...

 

I'm moving on...

I know I am not ready becasue the 2 dates I've been on....

I've only thought about him.

 

When a guy told me he was interested in being something more, I backed off and crawled back here... somewhere safe.

 

Now a gf, has decided to introduce me to her single male friends.

I've pushed and pushed for so long, but now I am forcing myself to go.

I'll go on emptiness dates.

Have someone entertain me for once.

 

 

Obviously, he hasnt made up his mind

hes not coming back

and to be honest..... I should pick myself and put myself out there.

 

Maybe this is a learning experience,

Maybe I'll grow some.

Maybe, but am not banking on it, I'll meet someone.

 

I will meet more people!

I will make some new friends!

I will possilbly get some hook ups , as far as my future in job related areas.

Hopefully.

 

Good bye my love,

I'm letting you go as much as I dont want to

As I am tearing writing this.

I care about you too much

But now its time for me.

Please understand.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I hope I dont crash and fall again.

But if I do, I hope you guys will be here to catch me.

[Maverick32x]

Thats what we're here for : ) Its tough, and I'm in your situation exactly... not sure if I want to put myself out there into meaninglessness... or if I want to try to keep myself available for them....

 

Those thoughts run through my mind a lot, and its hard... but I know it will get easier, and I just need to give myself permission to let it go and move on~

[LE DHUY NHUT]

Very moving...and I can totally relate,be strong, be happy,....don't rebound.