Poem I have just done...

[sarey]

Broken inside,

tears crawling down my soft, warm skin,

thinking of the times,

times we were together,

times we talked to each other,

loved,

cared,

all gone down the drain,

my fault,

I know,

always my fault,

right now, I feel so cold,

cold and dead, inside my head,

death, I stink of,

yet still breathing,

breathing the air, the air around me,

I ask myself, why did I let you leave?

I loved you, still do,

with all my heart, but it's torn apart,

broken and shattered,

neglected and battered,

I feel so worn out,

so tired,

what else is there to do,

when almost everything is dead inside of you,

tears race down my cheeks,

blood drips down me,

but as far as I can see,

I am dead as can be,

but still breathing,

the air around me,

I want you back,

your name is Jake,

I think of you when I awake,

waking from a dream about me and you,

but now that's down the drain too,

no more me,

no more you,

not anymore,

we can't be,

can't be 'we',

can't be 'us',

I feel so lost,

without you, I wonder,

I wonder who,

who am I?

With you I believed I was something,

but now I think who am I?

Just a girl, a thing infact,

a thing which cuts herself,

destroys herself,

tortures,

kills,

yet still breathing,

not dead yet,

just broken and bruised,

bleeding and all the time,

I always loose,

I want you back Jake,

I thought your heart belonged to me,

but everyone else left,

and just like them, you did too,

thinking won't help,

just makes it worse,

but just know one thing,

I love you,

with all my heart,

and I want you back,

I'm sorry for what I am,

how I am,

who I am,

but Jake, know this,

I love you,

forever and ever,

and ever,

and ever...

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

I read that in english today and almost cried. I know how you feel i really do, and i hope you feel better soon sweetheart.

[Tshwane]

this is really good Sarey, and your only 14? Don't worry you'll meet better versions of Jake later in life.

[sarey]

Thing is, I really do have really strong feelings for him, I spent all of last night crying.

 

I want him back so bad.

[KellyWyndham]

please stay strong! time heals

[undeniyable]

Hi sweetie! I read your poem, and I just want to say that it made me cry. Please, for me and all of your friends on here, please don't hurt yourself. Do you have your parents to talk too? A counselor? Anyone? I think you should seek some help hon. You will see that people are not as mean as you think, most people would love nothing more than to help someone in need. I hope you feel better, because there will be plenty more better Jakes in your life. Feel better sweetie.

[sarey]

We are back together and... well... I'm a nervous wreck.

 

Bt, thanks Undeniyable... and everyone elses posts.

[indigo_scar]

I love your poem. When something hurts you like that the words just flow. Its awesome that you'e back together. But if things go wrong again, try and focus on something else. You will go through hard times together, but if you both manage to stick it out, good on you. Hope you're ok!

 

Indigo x

[sarey]

Thanks Indigo, I appreciate it.

[indigo_scar]

No probs =)