Hazyillusions

Why can't you just msg me? Did I mean anything at all to you?

I missed you today. Right now it's nearly midnight here and I'm getting these overwhelming waves of sadness again. I just wish you were lying in the dark next to me, chatting into the night like how we used to do. I miss that. I feel so choked up.

I really want to talk to you right now. But im not going to be the one that makes the first move.

I dreamt about you. And now that I'm awake, I just feel incredibly saddened. I mean the dream wasn't too upbeat (we still had an expiry date and u were still planning to fly off home) but still... You were with me and I felt happy.

I love you. Its 2:41am here, wish I could get back to sleep. I miss texting you messages at 3am in the morning and feeling your warmth next to me.

I'm tired of crying and feeling like this. I want it to all stop, it's exhausting. I miss you.

Are we ever going to talk? You know...I really would have thought I'd meant enough to at least get some sort of response back as a reply to my message to you before the BU. It really feels like I was nothing to you, seeing that all there has been for the last 9 weeks is dead silence. I mean, f... It just breaks my heart. I get it, all this would be unproductive. I get it, I'm being crazy. I get it, I fell in too deep. It's just that I've pictured you in my mind constantly these days, my heart f aches. I miss you. You have no idea how much. I just wish things were different.