LAMBS4LIONS

1.5 years of NC. She contacted me a few weeks ago which I didn't pick up. I still wonder what she wanted and I feel like I may crumble soon to find out what she wanted.

Im so sorry to hear about your pain Javabear. Just know that time will heal your wounds. Its so true about an ex suddenly changing into someone completely different. Its almost as if they are a ghost of their former self, a stranger who you no longer recognize. My ex also turned into someone i no longer recognized, we were together for 12 years. Surround yourself with friends, family and hobbies both old and new. Times will get tougher before they get better. I have been NC for over a year aside from a text i sent this past December and as much as it hurt it gave me closure. She replaced me and got engaged in less than a year. What you have to try to understand is that you are neither dispensable or replaceable. This is the time for you to be selfish and work on your self and do the things you have always wanted to do. Have fun for life is way too short to spend concentrating on someone who didnt see your self worth. I truley believe that people who leave their partners for someone else lack integrity, it says ALOT about their character and who they really are. They are cowards who mask the void of their ex with the new person in their life, its not real, its just an illusion. Keep your head high and let time do its thing