I think I'm a better person now because of our relationship and even because of our break up. I wasn't open at all before our relationship and you were from the beginning. I'm sorry that I wasn't open at the beginning and you were so willing to be and it hurt you that I wasn't. I am so so sorry for that, you have no idea. But you have some growing up to do because that wasn't an excuse for your behaviour. You need to be able to figure out your feelings.
I realize now that it was wrong of me to ask you to work on a relationship that didn't exist anymore. But you have to accept some responsibility for why I thought there was still a relationship. I know that the things you were doing/saying weren't just things that you would do/say to any other friend, I'm not going to argue or try to prove it to you (although ANYONE would agree with me), being able to recognize and admit to it is part of the growing up that you have to do. I think what was going on was that you needed some space but you wanted me to be there for you when you were ready. So you pulled me a bit closer but then when I would pull you the rest of the way, you would freak out and feel smothered because you needed space. So again, I'm sorry that I pulled you when I had no right to but you have to accept your share of the responsibility, it wasn't fair for you to pull me in if you weren't willing to be in a relationship. I have apologized for everything I did wrong during our break up and I am sorry but just because I've admitted fault doesn't mean that none of the fault lies with you, it does and you have to recognize that.
I really wish things had gone differently with our break up, I want to be friends with you so bad. You're my best friend and I miss you so much. I want to be the one who gets to marry you when you do finally mature. I hope you don't forget about me. I know that I'm awesome and that you'll never find someone as perfect for you as me but I'm worried you'll forget that or dwell on the negative since you do tend to do that. I love you and I always will. I miss you i miss you i miss you.