Hi, I am a 32 year old man that has been married for 14 years to a wonderful woman. She is everything I want in a woman in every category except one. SEX
Let me start from where it all begins.
We married young (18) and had our first child at 19. I cant remember complaining about sex back then so it must have been good. We were 18 and new tot he whole sex thing so just having sex was fun and rewarding. But I am at a much higher sex drive then she is and we both admit this.
3 years ago I stepped out on my wife and we were separated for 10 months, both having tried new partners. I feel terrible and very remorseful for having cheated on my wife. She deserves better and since we have gotten back together she has gotten me HEART, MIND & SOUL TOTALLY. There are still rough times but we are both strong and we both love each other.
Once we got back together we had sex regularly and it was what sex should be ........fun, exciting and intimate. I look at sex as a way to become closer and gain trust in one another.
Here is the problem, lately we ahve been at a stand still in our sex life. In the last month we have had sex 3 times and all three times it was for ME, not us. And you know for most guys that might be alright, but I want more, I want to it to be a bonding, no walls, no anything.........just to be together.
So, this morning we got into it a little. She says she does not like her sex drive and that she just does not feel like sex. And hopes that a boob job will make her feel sexier. She tells me that when we first got married she felt that the way to keep me faithful was to give me sex all the time, even if she did not feel like it. But now that I have stepped out on her, there is no use in giving in just to keep me faithful.
My wife has nothing to worry about as far as me stepping out, it was a foolish and selfish thing to do and I have to live with the embarrassment, resentment and angry for the rest of my life. SHE should be made, but blames herself for not being 'good enough'. I could never have sex with her again and not stray.................I look at our relationship differently and I look at her differently.
The problem is, I am very fustrated at her low sex drive and top that with her being a VERY sexy woman................
Where do we start...............she refuses to seek out help.
Thanks
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