Ok, let me run a little personal history on myself so i can be a little more well known before I go into my dillema.
I am an 18 yr old male. I graduated from HS this yr at an all boy catholic school ranking 10th in my class. I am going to college this fall and am going to major in bioengineering. I come from a great and supportive family where my dad is a cop and my mom is a payroll administrator. I work out all the time and play the piano.
Enough about me personally though, let's get to my dillema. Well, this summer i started a job lifeguarding. It is a great job and it's so easy. All the lifeguards are cool and so are the kids and i just love the job. well, over the course of the season there has been this 12 yr old girl who had a crush on me from the beginning of the season. Anyways, she would always talk to me every day (well, 6 days a week we were open) and i would talk back and she is a really cool kid. Anyways, i had just thought it was a crush and liked her as a friend really, but nothing more. Over the last 2 weeks though, I have been talking to her on the phone every night for hours. She had given me her AIM name at the pool and i talkedt o her online then started on the phone. Anyways, the other night we talked for 5 hrs (from 11 PM till 4 AM!). I never thought i would have so much to talk about with a 12 yr old (although she is very mature for her age). Anyways, since talking to her outside the pool I have really grown to like her. I look forward to talking to her on the phone and seeing her almost every day at teh pool. Anyways, my dillema is, should I date her? I know we are in 2 totally different spots in life but it also feels like we're in the same place in life when we talk on the phone. we just relate so well. I would really like to have some relationship with her because I know she really likes me and i also like her a lot back. It's just confusing stuff for me. Society tells me that such things are wrong, but my feelings tell me it's right...even if it's not approved.
Now, i know this sort of thing arouses suspicion in people. Let me just say though, I have NEVER had a gf in my life. I have never kissed a girl or done anything. Im not a bad looking dude, i just sort of didnt bother trying to get a girl throughout HS. I knew girls I worked with and stuff but school was more important than a girl at the time. Anyways, I know that if i did date her i would never ever do anything illegal. The only place i could take anything with someone her age is to kissing and that's it......and i am totally cool with that. I am not a perverted dude who wants to be the next R. Kelly. I just really like her and if i dont at least try this thing out i know i will regret it.
Can someone please help me make a decision though. I know that my parents would be really weirded out by this....but over time they would understand and they trust me totally cuz i am really a good kid who has no history of doing anything really bad.
